For some people meds do help. ADs and sometimes anti-convulsants can help. But then, sometimes meds don't help. Since there isn't a defined "cause" there can really not be a "cure". Therapy definately is more beneficial.
I'm only on meds because of my bipolar, but they do crap for my BPD symptoms. My psych said he might want to put me on another med for my anger and such...I'm going tomorrow to see him, and I'll ask then.
i read that a person with BPD has impulses that are dangerous. what about this?? i binge eat a lot and also i pass the road even though cars are passing. is it impulse?
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It was thought last July that I was developing BPD and then as I was 18 they referred me to this psychotherapist who specialises in PDs. He pretty much confirmed it though did not say so explicitly. Am not receiving any real help as it would destablise me in my current state, apparently. I guess I agree with him.
I hide the cuts and don't let anyone know (apart from on here) what is really going on in my mind. Sure I give people little snippets but I don't want everyone knowing my business. So no one really knows how low I get and how often...
My bf actually denies that there is anything wrong with me. I was wondering if any of you have found this?
Hi I thought I share this links. This lady, the writter of the articles, AJ Mahari, had BPD and has recovered -well, that's a controversial issue, being able to recover or not- anyways:
irene - Yes thoese are things that can be called impulsive, i dont think i belive all of them are to do with bpd though, you have ones like binge eating, being reckless, sleeping around, spending money.
carole - Hmm im not sure on that, a lot of people have guessed im ill but dont know whats wrong with me, and some people only find out im ill when i tell them. It may just be that its hard for some people to accept.
becca - Im on meds as for borderline and dysthmia, they anti- depressents dont really do much form me. However the anti-phys knowck me out for hours. I dont really like that though, if im feeling like im going to do something, i cant knock myseff out to sleep all the time.
I dont like my friends right now much, they have threated if im suicidal again they will call the police and tell my parernts (even though im 20). And they are trying to force me to go to councelling. I hate it, its like now i have to pretend to be happy all the time.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I think meds help me function day to day but i wouldn't say they could be a cure for bpd. My AD helps control the depression, but not all the time and my anti-psychotics help boost the AD and calm everything in my head, so it seems clearer and i have more control. But different things work differently for different people and people experience bpd in very different ways so meds can be a case of trial and error. I find short term use of sedatives and sleeping tablets helpful when i get very unwell but i know that i have to be careful not to become dependent on them and use them only when i really need to.
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
Oh, the anti-psychotics...they definately put you to sleep! It's beneficial to me though, I'm occupied with school all day (from 6am-2pm) and then have one doctors appt or another, so I don't get home until 4-5. By 7 or 8 I can take an anti-psych if I need it and just sleep.
My meds knock me out so much i can hardly get up in the morning for uni, im nearly on the highest dose for them. Im so tired when i take them i cant do anything else but sleep
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
I'm so upset today. I tried to explain to my CPN exactly why I think the borderline diagnosis is wrong for me. He went on to tell me that all self-harmers have a personality disorder, that they could throw all the antidepressants in the world at me and it wouldn't make me better. I can't deal at all with confrontation so I just sat there and nodded and smiled whilst he told me he was referring me to the PD centre but inside I was just caving in, I don't have BPD!
Impossibility (sorry, I don't know your name!) he sounds like a complete idiot. We all know that just because a person SI's doesn't mean that they have a PD. I know it's hard, but go along to this PD centre and they will prove that he's a complete prick for saying that you have a PD simply because you SI. Then maybe you can get the type of help you actually need.
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I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
what about the feeling of emptyness?? sometimes i feel empty, i mean i don't want to do anything, just sit there and stare, then i get bored very easily whatever im doing. also i feel many times that something is missing, even though i have a good life, apart from depression, i mean i have everything, friends, family, school, but i feel that something is missing. like an organ of me is missing. like im not completed. does that describe emptiness?
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
The worst part is just having the feelings. The feeling of wanting to die, like life is sucked out of you - yet, the impulse is absent. The ideas may be there, but there are no impulses. That's what kills me.
I withdraw what I said earlier about the switching to hating people being the worst part. Having not had a huge mood swing day for a few days (yay!) I just spend today in a mix of laughing, then snapping at people, then crying and feeling awful. What Sarika described is definitely the worst part and something I find really hard to describe as well.
Mari - Sometimes I don't get up, I've had times when I've slept for 3 days straight because of the med dosage. Although, I was very suicidal so my psych told me "take these". I had no idea what they were going to do.
Irene - I hate the feeling of being empty. For me, it physically feels like there is something missing. I feel as if this hole is inside me - like if I were to open myself up there'd be this blank space. The feelings of boredom...I don't know if they're boredom really, but feeling like something should be happening or changing. I get that way when my mood hasn't changed. Like without the fluctuating moods...it's like a whole new territory and I don't know how to deal with it. I never have that much time to do something productive or worthwhile because normally I stop mid-way through (although this "boredom" also stop me, but in a different way).
i git diagnosed when i was 19 (i am now 22), prior to this i was being treated by CAMHS since i was 13. I was told of my diagnosis in my first appointment with adult services and was told that you are not really supposed to diagnose under 18s with bpd. Has anyone else heard this?
Shelley x
"What would you do if you knew, I hate myself for breathing without you!"
so boredom isn't exactly boredom. i feel the same way too.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
shelly- Its the same with every disorder, they do not like diagnosing under 18s with anything as it could be the wrong diagnosis, esp when you are growing up. some of them will have an idea in there head but cannot diagnse it until that person is 18.
Irene - I dont think you should read too much into the symptoms until you have a diagnosis, i just dont want you to worry thinking "i have this" when you might not.
The same goes to other people, dont self-diagnose, because you could be completly wrong and just cause so much worry and that.
=)
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
