I'm so confused right now. From Friday to this afternoon I felt like I would be quiet about my plans and kill myself after the meeting. Late this afternoon I started to fess up at program that there was so much more going on than being worried about going back to my job. It looks like I may go back inpatient tomorrow but really how long can ew play this game. I know that the staff don't want me inpatient and now I feel like I do not belong inpatient, outpatient, at work, or in my family. I am running out of ties to my life. I can't just stick around because I really like my therapist especially without money or insurance I wouldn't be able to keep her anyway.
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