Hello there, welcome to RYL!
Well done for reaching out for help, I can imagine that was a bit scary. First off, it might sound a bit silly but before covid how did you manage your emotions? I know you’ve said that your emotions are perhaps stronger than before but I’m wondering if there’s some useful coping strategies that you might not realise could be adapted to help you manage now.
Do you have anyone you can talk to about this? If not, maybe a helpline would be a useful ‘in the moment’ resource for managing crisis moments. I used to call the Samaritans when I was overwhelmed and about to self harm and generally I found that helpful just to be able to talk and I would continue talking until I’d cleared away the dangerous items.
My favourite resource in terms of distractions is this (I know it’s aimed at a younger audience but I think it’s still useful): https://www.slideshare.net/mobile/po...se-in-recovery
The person who made the above thingy also has a recent blog post and I haven’t actually watched the videos myself but she’s generally pretty good so it might be worth a look: https://www.pookyknightsmith.com/pos...ew-book-is-out
Good luck and please do keep posting here if it would help to share a bit more of what’s going on for you at the moment :)