It's a really hard time to get support. You're absolutely not alone to be struggling right now and having a hard time with finding the support you need.
If you're able to speak on the phone, can you see if telehealth is an option? Many metal health services are still open, just offering services remotely. That includes psychiatrists, and they're also letting first appointments be remote as well. I know things differ country to country, but it might be worth looking into in your area?