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Triggering (SI/Sexual Abuse) - Letter to Him (religion)
Letter to my abuser,
First of all I want to say “thank you,” because of our relationship I realized I needed God.
Because of God, I turned my life around. I stopped relying on guys to make me happy, now I am “engaged” to Him.
My last cut (forever) was on November 10, 2006. I am overcoming self-injury. It has not been easy, but it has been possible. I first had to make a promise to myself and to God that if I had any urges that I would talk to him or pray. So far, it has worked. I also had to stop making promises to other people, and relying on them for me to stop cutting.
Almost a year ago my life turned around. I was forced to move from Pennsylvania to my aunt and uncle’s house. Through her God healed me of my past. My wounds from my sexual assault we healed, and I was able to forgive you.
I am sorry for cussing you out that night; you didn’t need it nor deserve it. I am asking you to forgive me.
I really hope that you find the “right” women that God has picked out for you.
I am now writing a book about my cutting. I am hoping that this book will help other cutters and for them to realize that there is hope. When I was cutting I was so consumed with it that nothing else mattered. I didn’t care what anyone had to say.
I still have questions about what happened between us. I think I went the wrong way for getting closure.
I really hope that you continue to be happy and have a successful life.
I had contacted him 2 years ago and cussed him out. I met him online and he was 26 and married at the time. I was 16. I had agreed to have sex with him, but it never happened. I still consider him an abuser because he was controlling and tried to take away my cutting. My mom found out about him and what we were talking about and I was ordered to stop talking to him. I reported him to the police a year later, but I don't think anything had ever happened.
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