I chose life. After all of these years, I made it through.
I can't say there's a lot of people here who really know me. I always liked to write in a lot to try and advise people but rarely asked for advice myself. I always found some kind of comfort in helping people when I felt bad, it was nice to put it into positive energy.
This is it now, time for me to move on.
One year ago I spent weeks in a psychiatric unit after depression had been grinding me down for all of these years, anxiety had robbed me of a 'normal' life and combined with my family splitting up and moving away, I started to break down. I wanted to kill myself, I couldn't deal with what seemed to be this life I had. I felt I was no good and everything was worthless.
You can rebuild anything if you try.
Exactly one year on... I have everything I could ask for. Through never giving up on myself I have beaten depression. 9 medications later I have found the perfect balance. I'm in the best shape of my life because I couldn't stand to look at myself, feeling scrawny looking in a hospital mirror. I don't have to see doctors anymore. I've been on dates, had a successful job interview and I couldn't have a greater support network of friends and family.
I chose life and so should you. There is always something to live for and there is always beauty in the world.
After all of these years, I've made it through. To anybody reading this, please don't give up on yourself. There is a life after depression, I know that first hand.
Hold On Pain Ends
Last edited by overcome. : 24-11-2013 at 11:20 PM.
Everything passes, everything changes. Just do what you think you should do.
So inspirational. Needed to read something like this. Lovely story. Thanks for sharing that x
For you to be here now trillions of drifting atoms had somehow to assemble in an intricate and intriguingly obliging manner to create you. It's an arrangement so specialized and particular that it has never been tried before and will only exist this once. That is of course the miracle of life.
-Bill Bryson
Don't ever frown because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.
♥ .I'm going to fall like I don't need saving. ♥
...My smile's just the armour I built when I was alone...
There was some part of me that hurt so badly, that I wouldn't ever be able to forget it.
It faded but the memories could bring it back any second, keeping me in the moment.
It would never fully heal. I could never really be free. I could never really be fixed. Now I just have to work out how to live whilst being broken.
I feel like I'm dying.
I remember seeing you around, and I'm so happy to read this. Well done for all you've achieved, it's great that you've managed to turn things around so much. :)
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Thank you all for the kind words. Although I'm saying it's time to move on, I think I'd like to post now and again when I've got time, I haven't exactly been active online lately at all. If I could help people in any way based on my own experiences I'd really want to. Never give up trying. It'll all come together in the end.
Everything passes, everything changes. Just do what you think you should do.