Eurgh, f a b. //potential trigger//
Back in February I took an OD, was found by my flatmate and was rushed into the local accident and emergency department, and if that wasn't bad enough, it's where I work, so I had my colleagues, and to an extent, friends, treating me. Anyway, from there I got sectioned and admitted to a psychiatric hospital for three and a half weeks, where I seemed to be making a fantastic recovery, until recently. Over the past three days I seem to be relapsing slightly, my moods are beginning to swing again, I'm finding it harder to drag myself out of bed, I'm finding it a huge deal to just work up the courage to leave the house and go to the local shop, which is a two second walk away, I find myself avoiding the phone, social situations again, etc. Last thing I need and want is to end up back in there.
I can't see myself attempting again, I'm not that low, but low enough to make me see a change in myself. Low enough to see myself slowly relapsing back.
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