Adult - unhappy child = unhappy adult
i was an unwanted child, a disappointment. Parents were old and tired and burned out. Mom was nice, but tired and wanted a girl. Dad was just a miserable SOB and i was dirt on his shoe. For 60+ yrs I've bitten my hand when angry from frustration. I'd like to discuss that with others who do same. I know it's all from dad's constant put downs. He didn't trust me, I disgusted him, cost him too much, was a disappointment, he never touched me, never "I love you" or even "You're OK." I was never validated as a person. I'm 65, taught pub sch science 30 yrs, lost a brother, wife of 38 yrs walked away, next women only wanted my $. My daughter doesn't have time for me. I love my precious g'kids but cant see them enough. My life is a mess and I deal with it daily and it all is a result of my sick heartless dad. Peace
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