I am very grateful I have people to help me with difficult things. I just feel like it's wrong that I'm an adult, although I'm sure lots of people don't feel like proper adults.
I write in my diary every day and sometimes copy things out to give to my CPN when I see her. Sometimes it helps her understand and other times it doesn't and it feels like a bit of a waste of time her reading over stuff during the appointment. I wouldn't like to give her anything in advance to read because that's asking her to do extra work. Sadly, I talk to her in my head a lot. I annoy myself with that at times.
I would possibly get in touch with the CMHT or informal crisis team if I wasn't so anxious on the phone, but my support worker has been today anyway so it might look like I was asking for more support than I deserve.