The Safe Room - Page 3792

Chrissyann · 24-11-2009, 12:10 AM

What's up Hazel? *offers a hug*

frenchhorn · 24-11-2009, 12:10 AM

*hides* scared

riverdreams · 24-11-2009, 12:14 AM

*cries* does no like this is no good i is no good

shadow-light · 24-11-2009, 12:15 AM

was doing well... got to "healthy" weight and gone 11 days without purging... then today went back to bad ways :(

*is bad*

and... got an exam in the morning and done no work... not even sure if will be able to get into uni as today missed lectures after getting there as everyone inside was yelling and scared and wantin to come home so I gave in

Chrissyann · 24-11-2009, 12:18 AM

Don't worry about today Hazel... slip ups happen... and recovering from en ED doesn't happen overnight.... it's a long road with many hurdles.... and today has jus tbeen one of those hurdles... it'll get better.

And just do the best you can at uni tomorrow... that's all you can do. The more you worry about it, the harder you'll find it... just give it your best shot *hugs*

*offers hugs to everyone who needs one*

doesn't seem to be a great night for everyone

frenchhorn · 24-11-2009, 12:20 AM

scared, dont want to go back into uni tomorrow, have 3 hour rehearsal and 2 lessons and have to playin a masterclass, but feeling all freaked out and scared from panic attack and flashbacks

riverdreams · 24-11-2009, 12:24 AM

*curls up under a blankie*

stargazer_x · 24-11-2009, 12:24 AM

i wanna end this on my own terms and not let the pain destroy me anymore. feel empty inside. empty and painful.

Chrissyann · 24-11-2009, 12:24 AM

Sounds like a busy day tomorrow hunni. But how you feel now doesn't have to interfere with tomorrow.... it's a different day. Try not to be defeatest... you might surprise yourself tomorrow and have a good day! But you wont know unless you go.... is there anything you can do to pamper yourself to night to help yourself feel a bit better?

Chrissyann · 24-11-2009, 12:26 AM

*hugs Bethany* I know this is the obvious thing to say.... but it really will get better.... why deprive yourself of the chance to feel happiness?

shadow-light · 24-11-2009, 12:26 AM

I know shouldn't be annoyed at self... just so so so frustrated... recovered from and ED once years ago only to relapse and have to do it all over again

stargazer_x · 24-11-2009, 12:28 AM

*hugs back* Because i dont see it ever getting better. it never has not for long anyway. the flashbacks always come back and the panic come back and the crippling sadness comes back. i cant take it.

frenchhorn · 24-11-2009, 12:28 AM

*hides* shaking and freaked out

riverdreams · 24-11-2009, 12:30 AM

*cries* does no no what to do does no want to be

shadow-light · 24-11-2009, 12:32 AM

it's hard to see that it can get better sometimes... but it can, and it wil. one day you'll have a good phase that will just continue, it will seem like any other good day at first but then it will continue on and on being good

Chrissyann · 24-11-2009, 12:32 AM

I dont think you truely recover from an ED Hazel. It's like alcoholism... once you're an alcoholic, you're always an alcoholic. Yes you can get a bit better, and keep it under control, but I dont think it truely leaves your life. But you've proved that you can control it once... so you can do it again.

*hugs Imogen*

I know it feels like it wont get better at the moment Bethany, but it's not something that can happen overnight.... and just because you feel a bit better one day doesn't mean you'll feel better the next.... it's a rollercoaster... but one you'll get off eventually feeling stronger for going through with it... you just need to keep plodding through till the good times arrive... and they will one day

Chrissyann · 24-11-2009, 12:35 AM

*hugs riverdreams* what's going on for you atm hun?

stargazer_x · 24-11-2009, 12:36 AM

*sigh* thanks you guys. I know you're trying to help. I want so bad to believe it could actually get better and i guess thats why i'm still here, but then it just feels so hopeless.

riverdreams · 24-11-2009, 12:38 AM

*cries* its all to much i cants do it anymore
they wonts go away they wonts stop they is going to know they is going to find us
it be my fault i should no have been bad
i just wants it to stop

Chrissyann · 24-11-2009, 12:38 AM

Maybe knowing that I've felt in a similar position to you, but have come through the other side can encourage you. This time last year, I could have written word for word what you've been writing... but I'm so glad that I didn't make a rash decision... because I'm now the happiest I've ever been, and feel heaps better for learning to deal with what I went through. I'm a much stronger person because of it..... it really is possible =o)