Triggering (SI) - 58 Days, wasted.

['LlyC]

58 days wasted in twenty simple cuts. I was three days away from my two month goal. "Freedom day" I feel like such a failure. Like, there's no point in even trying to get better anymore. I just wanna curl up and cut myself to sleep again like i used to. That's what I was used to. That's the only thing i seem to be good at. Hurting.

[Wonderful.]

*Cuddles*
58 days is amazing, you came far and you made an amazing attempt at recovering! It's just a slip up... Instead of thinking as it as a "waste" how about pretending it never happened?
I know that's hard to do and the urge to hurt again is probably really strong.
But you went 58 days... You can keep going! You are in no way a failure.

Cutting, curling up and sleeping seems ideal when you feel as low as you sound to be... but it can never be a long term option can it? Like you said "used to" You can move on from this.

What made you cut?

I hope you are feeling better and are safe and taking care of yourself!
Keep going! You can do it.
=]

[shieldworld]

Sweetie, tears is right. 58 days is amazing! And if you've manged it before then you can do it again. I know it's really tempting to just curl up and sleep and slip back into your old habits but you're trying to stop doing that for a reason.

'Used to'. Used to means you've learnt how to not do it. You're not fully recovered yet, but babe, 58 days is an amazing attempt. You didn't screw up, and they're not wasted. It's just a slip up, we all do them when we're trying to quit.

You CAN do this sweetie, we're all behind you (})