I have been noticing for some time now that we all get caught up in all the negative things in life; especially here in Vets, even though there are moments in 'our lives' which are really positive. I thought that starting a thread where every single member of Vets could post any positive things in their life and see what others have posted, maybe even realise that your life still does have some positives even when you are at your worst.
When I say positives I don't just mean major events and I realise that there can be a large difference between some people's positive events, situations, life events. For someone the positive might be that they made it through the day, whilst for someone else it is making it through an hour and someone else's is making it through 5 minutes. Someone's positive might simply be that they are alive. Some people might be able to make a list of the positives they have found in their lives whilst others may only find one or two but it doesn't matter, just finding a positive when it seems like your world is crashing down or the darkness is everywhere is no mean feat and is something that should you should be proud of.
My hope is that all Vets can contribute to this thread, and be able to use it when they are struggling to remind themselves that no matter how dark their situation is there is some light.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
1. My step-daughter is visiting until April 9th
2. I have just submitted my first assignment for my subject this semester - 11 days early
3. I have my two wonderful puppies
4. I have gotten to see the niece and nephew that I rarely see several times over the last few days
5. My parents have been very helpful, especially when my husband and step-daughter were on Magnetic island for two days
6. Despite everything what could have been two falls, one in which I would have hit my head, were stopped by the handle of my wheelie walker
7. Surprisingly my brother came over, less surprisingly it was because he wanted something, but when we explained my situation and why I was in a wheelchair he fully agreed, with all his medical experience, that we were taking the right approach
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
For today I am struggling a bit so hopefully this will help me.
1. My GP is organising the bits he needs for the referral for my spinal surgery
2. My father-in-law has been really good and has told me how to best get the public system to fully pay for my flights
3. When going to see the doctor today we found a disability park which meant that we had a longer "walk" but we didn't have to pay for parking and had no time limit
4. I e-mailed my psychiatrist last night and he responded today and offered an appointment on Tuesday which I just have to confirm on Monday
5. Because we didn't want to take Hayley with us to an inpatient psychiatric unit because both of us needed to go in to see the doctor so she would have been sitting in the waiting room alone we asked my sister if she could possibly look after her and she agreed
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
1- Despite massive urges I still haven't hurt myself, it's been a couple of months I think.
2- My baby girl was snuggly yesterday when I got home. So she must miss me when I'm gone. Same goes for the dog.
...I try to outsmart him, but somehow he knows,
Wherever I am, that f***ing dog goes... - Dog, Andy Bull
No matter how bad things get, the true test is how we choose to respond to the pain we suffer, or inflict. - Amenadiel, Lucifer
Why is the path unclear,
When we know hope is near
Understand we'll go hand in hand, but we'll walk alone in fear
~~Margo is my penguin 🐧!!! ~~
Whilst trying to get the details of both the hospital where I want my spinal surgery and the doctor I want to lead the team that does the surgery I went onto the hospital's website and found, to my surprise, that they actually had a link on the main page saying "refer your patient". After clicking that there is a number for the doctor to call which organises referrals and the like and a couple of other links. Following one enabled me to find the appropriate specialist who had also been recommended to me and his clinic details. The other gives heaps of information for GP's. Tomorrow I'm taking screenshots and preparing to fax it to the doctors surgery addressed to my GP so he can make the phone call and get the process started. One step closer to possibly walking again.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
I didn't think I would get out of bed today but then I went for a long peaceful walk somewhere i'd never been before, and I took some pictures and felt a little better.
I managed to get out and about today, albeit to the supermarket. Even with all the people I didn't freak out and, since I am in the wheelchair, most people really gave way out of their own volition but the rest moved when I asked to get past. Just asking people to move can be really difficult for me since I'm terrified of people.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
This morning I went to a singing group that I am part of and took my step-daughter along. She had a good time and I had a, relatively, small number of people asking why I was in a wheelchair.
I got to spend a little time with my parents before they leave to go help clean out my dad's mother's house so the property can be sold.
My husband cooked a really nice Cantonese rice dish and it was really nice.
Before today/tomorrow is out we will be on free medication scripts for the rest of the year. Thank you Safety Net.
Today I was up at 06:30 and didn't have a cigarette until 12:50.
I learned that I can get the wheelchair in and out of the unit all by myself today which means that I'm not stuck either inside the unit or outside the unit. Having said that, I took myself out once and, knowing that I was on a downward slope, I intended to put myself purely on my back wheel and do a wheelie because my step-daughter was watching. When I saw the look on her face, sheer terror, and realised that the jumpier of our dogs had started vibrating I stopped - all the time in perfect control by the way. Obviously I gave them a huge fright but I was laughing my head off.
My husband taught my step-daughter how to do dishes because she claimed that she doesn't do them because she is crap at doing them and her mother has to redo them every time. The dishes she did here after her father stood and helped her how to best do them are perfectly fine to be put away for another use.
Wow, I really thought that I had only one positive, total.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
I have memory problems sometimes, which is why this happened in the first place but last night I found $300.00 in my room that I'd stowed away for a college payment and forgot about. I thought i was going to be short on it and I was freaking out and then I found it.
Someone gave me copies of the harry potter audio books so I can enjoy them even though I can't read books properly now. I've been playing them a few chapters at a time before bed and it seems to help.
I was really worried about losing a friend recently and they seem to be doing a lot better now and we've been spending extra time together and it feels really nice and I'm lucky to have someone I love that much.
I still have talents even though doing things is hard right now. I keep thinking I don't when I'm feeling bad but right now I'm acknowledging that they're still there somewhere.
This Saturday is the open house at my college and I'm being proactive and asking about disability accomodations so I can ask for the right documents at my doctors appointment this month.
We actually made it to my early meeting with my psychiatrist despite me not sleeping at all the night before, having a massive struggle to wake my step-daughter and husband, having to take my step-daughter to my sister's place so she didn't have to sit alone in the waiting room - let alone of a psychiatric unit, stopping on the way to refuel the car and drop scripts in and finally the very long drive to the hospital.
My appointment went really well and he spoke with us both about the pros and cons of lorazidone - a new antipsychotic that we're considering for both me and my husband because it works like quetiapine but without the side effects like weight gain, lethargy etc and has been showed to have a positive effect on patients with bipolar disorder, particularly if the patient has both - and the brand new range of antipsychotics coming out that are based on a completely different idea.
After we got home my husband let me sleep for a number of hours.
We went to do grocery shopping with my step-daughter pushing my wheelchair and we had a great time. For a change most people either got out of our way or made room.
I was able to ask the butcher for assistance each times they were really helpful and friendly.
I'm up nice and early again this morning.
Last edited by Kahlia1981 : 06-04-2016 at 02:56 PM.
Reason: NQR
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
We got all the laundry done and only have a couple of loads to put away.
I was able to do the dishes even though it meant standing or rather leaning on the bench.
A referral has been sent through to a spinal surgeon.
My dogs are acting really cute and protectively surrounding me.
I managed to manoeuvre my wheelchair in and out of the unit and, as a bonus, didn't hit my either of my dogs.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *