Don't really know where to start

UmmNoWhy · 12-09-2018, 03:10 AM

I've been wanting to kill myself for a while now and idk if it's depression or something else like that but I'm almost to that point. Help

tamobhuuta · 12-09-2018, 03:07 PM

What thoughts go with the suicidal things? When did this start?

UmmNoWhy · 12-09-2018, 03:30 PM

Started 5 years ago and I keep getting these thoughts every day

tamobhuuta · 12-09-2018, 05:22 PM

That's really tough, well done for still being here. Does anyone in your life know you're feeling like this?

UmmNoWhy · 12-09-2018, 05:49 PM

They do not and I really don't want them to

tamobhuuta · 13-09-2018, 03:14 PM

Do you have a GP or psychiatrist? I think someone needs to know.

UmmNoWhy · 13-09-2018, 03:30 PM

I do not have either

tamobhuuta · 13-09-2018, 04:32 PM

A good first step would be to talk to a doctor. How have the past few days been?

UmmNoWhy · 13-09-2018, 04:59 PM

I just feel nothing all the time. I really don't know why

tamobhuuta · 14-09-2018, 12:58 PM

Do you have any thoughts about asking for professional help?

Sorry for going on about professional help but I and lots of people I know find it really helps.

UmmNoWhy · 14-09-2018, 05:06 PM

I'll try and find a professional soon.

tamobhuuta · 14-09-2018, 07:58 PM

How are you feeling?

UmmNoWhy · 14-09-2018, 08:30 PM

Empty

one_step_closer · 15-09-2018, 03:02 PM

If you're feeling depressed and empty it's no wonder you have been thinking about suicide. What do you have in your life at the moment, activity wise and relationships? Is there anything safe that you enjoy that you could be doing more of to hopefully allow you to feel something good rather than feeling low and empty?

UmmNoWhy · 16-09-2018, 05:08 AM

Activity wise, none just games I guess.
Relationships, like significant other? None.
I feel NOTHING all the time, unless someone cracks a joke or something like that.

one_step_closer · 16-09-2018, 11:07 AM

It does sound like your life is quite empty at the moment so of course you will be feeling empty too. What might you be able to get involved in? Do you have any friends? If jokes make you feel something maybe you could watch some comedy each day. I know that's not a proper solution but it might allow you to feel something ok for a bit of time. Have you managed to let someone know how you're feeling yet?

UmmNoWhy · 19-09-2018, 03:35 AM

Sorry for the late reply, had to get away from everything for a little bit.
What might I be able to get involved in? Nothing I can think of at the moment.
Do I have any friends? Yes. A few but they think im weird so idk if they really are my friends.
Let anyone know how I am feeling? Yes a couple of people and soon a psychiatrist/psychologist whatever you call it.

UmmNoWhy · 21-09-2018, 09:20 PM

Bye then ��

tamobhuuta · 22-09-2018, 10:20 AM

Hi, sorry I didn't reply before, I didn't think I had anything helpful to say. How were the last few days?

one_step_closer · 23-09-2018, 04:00 PM

It's quiet at times on here and sometimes people aren't able to reply because they are struggling or whatever, I'm sorry you didn't get a response for a while but we do try our best. Do you know of any activity groups in your area that might interest you or even that you could just give a try? How have you been getting on with talking to people about how you're feeling?