Complete Outbreak of Insanity

Gizzy · 27-08-2007, 11:38 PM

At midnight it's gonna be a week since I stopped SI.
I just got my first outbreak of complete insanity since I stopped.
Does anyone else get these? Like just...a complete burst of energy all at once?
I'm not sure if it's a good feeling though. It's kinda crazy. Like...I can't stop moving. I'm just really fidgety and feeling weird. Crazy weird.
Gives me the urge to hit myself and stuff, just out of pure hyperactiveness and stuff, but I'm not gonna, cause I count it as SI.
This is just going around in circles really, but I can't explain how it feels.
Anyone else understand/get this?

cutupangel09 · 28-08-2007, 02:20 AM

I have some form of that problem. When I stop SIing I get really depressed, anger, or spurts of happiness randomly because I'm not controlling it like I do with SI even though I know it isn't healthy. It should get better with time. One week is a great accomplishment.

Gizzy · 28-08-2007, 03:57 AM

Thanks :)
I get random mood swings and crazy emotions when I stop.
But this is different somehow. It's just weird.

Ami · 28-08-2007, 04:13 PM

Well done on a week!
I think its quite common, like cutupangel said, you "control" yiour feelings with SI-ing.
take care x

BrightRed · 28-08-2007, 05:03 PM

Yeah! i get that to, up to now i thought i was the only one. well done on a week keep it up xx

Doesnt_matter · 28-08-2007, 06:23 PM

Hi Emily!
I always compare stopping to SI with a real drug withdrawal.
Especially during the first weeks, I was so agressive and emotional.
Since I have been stopping, often all my thoughts seem to lead to SI- thoughts.
There are so many moments, it still feels like a real withdrawal, although I haven´t been cutting myself for four months.
Sorry that this isn´t very encouraging but I hope that it shows you that you are not the only one who feels this way.

Take care,
Judith

roxanne · 29-08-2007, 01:11 AM

yes, i get this way every time i have a urge. i become very fidgety. i have a tendency to flick my fingers a lot. i can't stop moving them. i have even started doing this out in public. it has become so routine. my mom noticed a few weeks ago and thought she was annoying me. but, it was just another urge.

Whispering_Voices · 29-08-2007, 01:18 AM

A week, well done, that's a god few footsteps to recovery. If I stop, and I've gone 4 months free now. At the moment, I keep triggering for no reason. One minute I'll cry, the next I'll stop talking and other than that, I get really really angry and violent. It's phases of your head working out which you should feel right now and the hitting yourself with things is just the results, don't worry too much, feel positve that you've gone a week.
xx