can I ask for some support.
I'm having a bad week and not coping very well tonight
sorry this is vague i keep trying to get my thoughts out but i can't find the words and i can barely see the screen through tears
I'm Sorry, your having a bad time at the moment, keep strong, and I hope things get better and you feel better too. Feel free to PM me if you need to talk. There's always someone willing to listen.
I have been having trouble with my mood all year.
Since the summer I have been depressed, I've been off work since september
Meds aren't helping, I recently was changed from olanzapine to quetiapine and since then my mood has been lower than I thought it could go.
All I want to do is die
I'm so sorry about that! Have you been back to your gp to say that these meds appear to be making you worse? And do you have a psychologist or someone to talk to about whats on your mind?
I am being seen by the early intervention team, I text one of the people I see there to say that I am feeling worse since starting on these pills and I told the person I am seeing for CBT through EI too unfortunately this drop in mood may mean she is unable to continue seeing me.
I am so fed up of being put on new medication with the hope that it will help and be let down once again. I am seeing a psychiatrist for my medication the last time I saw him he said he was running out of strategies to treat my depression. I feel like such a hopeless case. Maybe I should just learn how to live with feeling like this rather than trying to beat it. I want to give up fighting I don't have enough in me to win so what is the point continuing to battle
I had an appointment with someone from the early intervention team I see today. She was worried by my drop in mood and has contacted my psychiatrist who suspects the quetiapine is sedating me which is lowering my mood and should pass with time. I really hope it passes soon I can't cope with feeling like this much longer
*hugs* I'm glad you've managed to talk to people, even though it's not the result you hoped for. Hopefully they can get you back to where you want to be again.
Feeling rubbish.
Had a fairly good weekend, spent saturday working on my friend's small holding but my mood is back to how it was last week.
I don't want to be here any more its the only thought i have and it goes round and round in my head all the time.
What have I done to deserve feeling like this? I feel like I should be punishing myself for whatever wrong I have committed to warrant my mood being this low. I don't want to be here any more. I am at a lost as to what to do now
Nope, my mood has been low since July time. There was no obvious cause. I went away for a weekend Monday morning I woke up shattered and feeling low. The exhaustion lifted then depression stayed.
I've tried a number of different medication over the last few months, but nothing has really made any difference. My medication was changed a week or so ago and it has been much worse since then. Its gone lunchtime by the time I drag my lazy ass out of bed. I just want to hide from the world, I don't want to be here any more. I wish I knew what i had done to deserve feeling like this. I must have done something
Sometimes we get more tired when we have irregular sleep patterns or sleep too much. Do you think it might be worth trying to get back into a more regular sleep pattern?
On the other hand, it could just be the medication.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
My team were unable to get me an appointment but he agreed to add in mirtazapine over the phone.
I want it to help so badly, I am really struggling with thought that I want to die. The other night I woke up in the early hours with the strongest thoughts of ending it I have had recently. They really scared me I don't know how long my strength can keep these thoughts at bay.
And yesterday I went into the city center and I felt like everyone was staring at me. I am not sure whether I was just feeling really self conscious or was slightly paranoid. It has shaken me up somewhat.
whether you were feeling really self conscious or paranoid, you are still able to recognize that it was unfounded, which is a really positive thing. it still feels terrible, but at least you are able to think logically.
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
I've lost count of the amount of times I have come back to this thread to reply/ ask for support.
I don't have the words to describe the mess in my head. Thoughts spin round and round at times paralysing me to the spot, they are so dark, so distressing I feel like I am a passenger in my own body.
I have just had an appointment with the early intervention team. He said he was worried about me. He's concerned at how low my mood is and that I am not looking after myself properly. I need to pull something out of the bag to improve my mood or the standard of my life but I'm floundering I don't know what I am meant to be doing.
All of my energy each day goes on not acting on the thoughts, I try my best to do activities through out the day. They say that should help me but it doesn't I feel so defected.
I appreciate this is little more than a rant but I really need to reach out
Sending hugs your way. It's good that he is worried and that he can maybe put some things in place to support you before something more serious happens. Well done on reaching out to get help and for staying so strong you are doing amazingly
xxxx
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
