Beyond repair.

[one_step_closer]

Please don't listen to him, he is just being cruel. You aren't an evil bad person, you are a person and you deserve to be looked after when needed.

[chinahorse]

I'm still waiting to be seen.

[one_step_closer]

Are you any further forward yet Lillie?

[chinahorse]

It's taken him 2 and a half hours and now he wants me to see psyche.

[chinahorse]

Psyche disnt want to see me.

[Fire Fly]

Hey lovely, have the sorted the wound? Listen, this is a new psych liaison service. Be honest and treat this as a fresh assessment after all this is brand new team who maybe able to offer you different support and support you weren’t getting before.

Lillie, you deserve so much support and care. You are so resilient and need people to support you. Right now, I’m honestly would you consider as much as you would hate it but being a new team would you consider an admission? Let them assess to see what kind of support would help you?

[Fire Fly]

Did they say why?

[chinahorse]

No. Just said I could go.

[chinahorse]

Even when I go and seek out help I don't get it.

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry they didn't listen to you. Have you left yet? You maybe could have insisted on seeing psych, it's not fair for them to turn you away if you need support.

[Auror.]

If you had said when you got there that you didn't want to see psych, perhaps they were just trying to respect your wishes? Did you get your wounds seen to at least?

[chinahorse]

I left and had mcdonalds and am on the bus home.

Feel even worse than I did this morning. What's the point anymore? Really don't want to go to work tomorrow. Don't want to face abother day of being shit. Don't want another day of the man and his control and the evil. Just don't want this.

[chinahorse]

Honestly how am I meant to keep going?

[chinahorse]

Really do not feel able to go to work today but I have no choice.

[Eska]

*sends love*

Whether you end up going to work or not, I hope today works out ok and that you get some relief from the feelings.

[chinahorse]

Thank you.

I have to go to work. I am the only employee. I really don't like it there. It makes me feel even more useless.

[chinahorse]

So my mum just took me to work and spent the entire journey telling me why I don't need to be stressed. That's not helpful when you are stressed.

[one_step_closer]

How is work going? What are the main things that are causing you stress? I hope you're at least managing ok. You have so much strength although I know everything is painful and you don't want to be doing life right now.

[chinahorse]

Work was ok enough.
I'm stressed because I have no money, no close friends,live in a house I hate, my cat seems unwell and I don't like my job. Literally cant pick out a single good thing right now.

Mum wants to know why I self harm. She can't know about the man because it endangers her. So now she thinks I don't know why I do it. And she's frustrated.

[tamobhuuta]

I'm sure your mum is safe. My mum knows about the Man who talks to me and is able to help me fight him. Maybe start by saying you are scared to talk, see what her reaction is?