I don't have the heart to tell you, but an hour after I posted that I felt suicidal again. I can't bear to disappoint you.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
You're a fucking mother! A 26 year old woman for crying out loud....and you behave like a bloody teenager! Grow the fuck up!
And you....don't even get me started on you, you selfish twat, so what you missed out yesterday....go ask the mother of your child and the woman you claim to "love!", I suppose that word is just one you use to get your own way. Just stay away from me, you mess my head up too much...
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people,
If u want the Rainbow,u gotta put up with the Rain
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: London
I am currently:
I can appreciate now just how ill I have been, because in the tiniest tiniest tiniest of steps, I feel like I'm getting better. And its wonderful. I still have a really long way to go, but I can say now I feel like I'm on the right path. Its mostly thanks to the most compassionate and gracious person Ive ever met. I just hope that once Im on my own again that I can keep moving in the right direction and keep on getting better.
'Where did I go wrong
My life's a bargain basement, all the good shits gone
why did you have to do that to me. we were supposed to be friends, id have done anything for you. you selfish nasty cruel bitch. i hope karma gets you.
I hated that you laughed at me when I said that. I hate that I almost let you make me cry. You live in that state for years and then watch each family member get ill because they were happy to live in their own filth and I'll sit there and I'll laugh at you. Okay?
Last edited by [Luna] : 15-03-2012 at 11:30 PM.
Reason: Forgot a word
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
I don't want to make it to the '1 year since the rape' mark. I keep trying to tell myself i do, and i can but the truth is i honestly don't think i'm that strong.
Today was a good day, yet the thought was still very close. I'm frightened and i don't know what to do.
And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears...
What on earth did I do to deserve you guys? You save me all the time, and I'll never be able to do enough to repay you.
ALL the love, on precisely ALL of the days!
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In other news. I feel sick. Dinner will be challenging, but I will do it, because I need x more calories to reach my goal, and I'm not giving up on getting better.
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