I don't know how to cope with being ugly
I'm a 14 year old girl, and I am actually ugly. I know so, because my friends have told me I am, and so has some of my family members. I know they're not trying to be rude, it's just the truth. Sometimes, around the time I get my period in the month, I get a few pimples on my forehead, and one of my friends has a habit of whenever she sees me with some, she touches the area with her backhand and says "oh my gosh wash your face!". Not all of my friends are like that though, and I stopped hanging around that girl. That's not even my only issue. I have very light skin but dark circles, and discoloration around my mouth. I basically look like a ghost. I've been wearing makeup to school every single day to hide the yellowish color around my mouth and my dark circles, and also putting on large circle lens glasses just so people don't notice the rest of my face. My family members say I look like a malnourished child, and asked me why I don't just eat healthier. I've tried talking to my mom about this, and she told me to stop being silly and just don't care about the way I look. Well, that's sure a lot easier said than done! I hate looking at myself in the mirror and seeing my face. I hate how I spend so much money on skincare products and still look like garbage. I hate wasting time in the morning when I'm already late to do my makeup. I hate walking into my school and seeing girls who were born pretty and don't need any makeup. I hate knowing that I will never, ever be as pretty as any of them. I want to accept myself, but it's hard. I don't know how to. My insecurity has gone through the roof. I hear everyone talking about loving yourself no matter what you look like, and that's a bunch of bullcrap. Those people don't know what it's like to be ugly. How do I overcome my insecurity?