Location: sitting this one out in the safety cupboard
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Originally Posted by chinahorse
Need to feel pain. To atone for the evil.
Even if there was a need for atonement (which I don't think there is), there isn't anything evil enough in the world that would deserve the pain you have inflicted on yourself over the last ten years. You deserve kindness and care, not any more hurt.
We’ll find a way to fight it, we always have.
It's not how tragically we suffer but how miraculously we live.
My goals are things I should work on by myself and they can't help me. A care coordinator wouldn't be helpful and they won't be offering therapy. They won't alter my meds until I've had a blood test. So here's a form see you in a month.
They said I had severe enduring mental health problems. Then offered me nothing.
I've been reading your posts and your R/V, and I think the following is what you need to tell them when they ask what help you need: "And by the way support looks like someone actually asking how I am. Someone helping me to apply for PIP and helping me to get to appointments. Someone working with me to try to integrate me into life and someone coming to my house to help make sure I'm cleaning and washing myself and eating. And someone helping me make a plan to deal with stress." Those are great things to ask for, and could really help. I hope you get the support you need. Are these things you could talk to the CPN, or the person you see, about? (I'm in a different medical system so am not always sure of the terms/functions of, say, a CPN, etc.)
I changed my password everywhere to "incorrect". That way, when I forget it, it always reminds me, "Your password is incorrect."
I don't have a named worker or see anyone. There's no one to ask.
I didn't make it to my hospital appointment today. I was too anxious. It's a very long way from my house and I hadn't made the journey before and I couldn't do it. I feel I should be punished for this. I don't know what to do about future appointments.
Just had to apply for a loan to cover my rent which will be deducted from my benefits. I feel like such a failure. I'm in such a financial mess. I've never been in this situation before. It's horrible. So now I'll be paying that back. Paying my credit card back and paying my parents back. And I don't even know how much benefit I'll get if I get it.
Which form did the CMHT give you and who are you seeing in a month? Can you contact that person?
You shouldn't be punished at all for missing your appointment, you were punished enough with the anxiety you felt. Did you get in touch with the hospital? Maybe they could arrange patient transport if that's a thing where you are.
I'm sorry you're having money worries, that doesn't make you a failure though. I really hope that you can get benefits sorted out. Have you had help to fill in the applications for benefits? From citizen's advice maybe?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Seeing a psychiatrist and the forms for a blood test. I made a gp appointment for Saturday with a nice gp and will see if she has anything to suggest.
I haven't been in touch with the hospital no.
Crisis helped me with the application for universal credit. A friend supported me to make the initial phone call for PIP. And after a Google I applied online for a reduction in council tax today. Citizens advice can help with benefits? Would they help with PIP?