*cuddles* i know the feeling! yet somehow i'm getting through all my work :/ idk, i think it helps that i told the college about my MH issues and SH so they are supportive and help me a lot. i'm just really panicking about college tomorrow for some reason :/
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
Well I just got up to find last nights meds still sitting in their cup waiting to be taken , Oops! , So I took them , then I took this mornings meds , I don't feel as groggy this morning and I forgot one particular med that makes me groggy last night , coincedence? hmmm. I took it this morning , I mean I took ALL my night meds as I won't be taking them again until tonight.
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I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Mark, sorry to hear that you're feeling so, well, poopy. :( *cuddles* Is/are your cut(s) okay? I mean, taken care of etc.? You're usually pretty careful about that but I thought I'd ask anyway. *extra big cuddles*
Sarah, sorry that you and your fiancÚ had a row. :( That bites. Hopefully it can be remedied?.... I don't understand people who say that they don't want to be around their "friends" or family because those people are feeling low and that brings the other people down. If you LOVE them then shouldn't you WANT to be around them, help them the best you can, etc., etc.? Or am I just weird, because I want to help people & see hope for everyone? :( I don't want to think that, because that means that this world is in an even sorrier state than I thought... *cuddles tight*
Felicia, I hope that the reading aloud of the short story goes okay. :( Was that the short story that had something to do with the skeletons in your closet, so to speak? I'm sorry, memory is like a sieve. :( I also hope that counseling goes okay. I go tomorrow... finally... after 2 weeks without, it's going to be a relief to see her again and be able to blab about stuff. I know that I NEED counseling and am lucky to have found a wonderful therapist. :-/ I just hope that, well, it goes okay for both of us. :)
Hee, I'm listening to Christmas music. ^_^ It makes me happy inside, all warm & fuzzy. :) I love Christmas, love love love LOVE IT!!! and it can't get here fast enough, although I definitely am NOT looking forward to the snow... bleh. I mean, I can't wait until the first snow, but it's a pain having to clear off my car before I go anywhere, and being careful driving around here. So many hills, which I adore, but... can be a pain since neither Jarrod nor I have 4WD. Grrrr. But I <3 snow... so pretty. I just don't like the annoyance that it brings. IF that made any sense I will be astounded. :P
I woke up feeling fine then having some GI issues... ugh. But I'm feeling better now (don't worry, no puking, and also, I don't think it's infectious, am pretty sure that it was just nerves about my upcoming job training ACKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!). Erm anyway, am doing okay now. Have had some ginger tea (omnomnom!!!) and some canned peaches for breakfast (weird I know but I'm being gentle with my tummy, lol). *sigh* I'm nervous still though, feel kinda like jumping out of my skin even though I've had a Klonopin. Bleeehhh. I've journaled some already today as well so I think I need to journal some more... :-/ It really helps with getting out my "blah" feelings.
*cuddles all not mentioned* I hope Hels is having an okay time at her bestie's. :)
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All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*cuddles April* It should be easily sorted, he needs someone to talk to that isn't me about all of this, so I just hope he gets that. Its been such a hard day today. I just wish everything was okay again, so he didn't have to resent every happy couple he sees or my friends and family because I can lie to them so easily... I don't know what to do anymore :(