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02-05-2017, 08:27 PM
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Laugh often. Dream big. Reach for the stars!!
Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: Canada
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Need help remembering
Hi Everyone,
I'm not feeling well. That's the refrain when I get like this:
I don't feel well.
I forgot to get my blister pack from my dad this morning so I've gone all morning and afternoon without meds. At about 2:30 I gave up white knuckling it and searched my parents room for my meds.
I found them. Though now I'm not sure how helpful that is.
I've taken what I'm supposed to take for today, but oh boy, I want to take all of them so bad.
I know it will be a waste of meds and it probably won't do anything anyways. It's just that... I don't feel well. This will make me feel better. It's not going to kill me so it shouldn't matter.
Except it does.
It all matters.
You matter. I matter. The whole universe *is* matter.
Right now I need help remembering that. That I don't need to take these pills. That the sun will set on today and I'll feel better tomorrow.
Bleh!
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It's the children the world almost breaks that grow up to save it.
-Frank Warren
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02-05-2017, 10:56 PM
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#2
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Join Date: Jun 2004
Location: UK
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Please don't take them. Tomorrow is a new day and you will eventually feel better. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. You need to keep walking to see it.
Can you give the rest of the medication to your dad to keep yourself safe?
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Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
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03-05-2017, 07:17 AM
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Join Date: Apr 2017
Location: Texas
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Hello,
I know what it is like, the overwhelming feeling of "I don't feel well". I know it sucks, and it hurts. I am there myself too, but I am still here. and you are still here. That means you are strong, and you can keep being strong. You do not need to take them. I don't know when, but it can get better. you can feel better. you are right, you do matter. I hope you are ok
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07-05-2017, 07:12 AM
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Laugh often. Dream big. Reach for the stars!!
Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: Canada
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Hi guys,
Thanks for the replies.
It turned into this big mess of emotions in my head and I just couldn't cope. I couldn't cry and hurting myself just wasn't helping.
I did end up taking the medicine and spending the night in emerg. Unfortunately for me the doctor who was on *basically* hates Borderlines and wants them out ASAP. I was released at 7:10am, the moment my ECG came back clear.
I went home and I just started feeling worse and worse so on Wednesday I came back and talked to different doctors and now I'm admitted. I don't know how long, probably not very.
Anyways, thank you.
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It's the children the world almost breaks that grow up to save it.
-Frank Warren
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14-05-2017, 02:15 AM
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Laugh often. Dream big. Reach for the stars!!
Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: Canada
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Thank you for reaching out. I appreciate that a lot.
How I'm doing is not very well. Except all the professionals think I'm a Rockstar coper. It's all very frustrating. I don't know how to take care of myself both mentally and physically and they're all "but you came into emerg! You don't smell!" When in reality I don't know when to change my clothes or shower or eat appropriately or *not* destroy myself.
I don't know. I'm basically unhelpable because I'm too willful or something. I don't see it that way. I see it as I'm still getting something out of the behaviour.
Being self-aware and having insight really sucks sometimes.
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It's the children the world almost breaks that grow up to save it.
-Frank Warren
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