At the point I consider my personal rock bottom I smoked weed daily, ranging between 2-3 spliffs to an 8th each session. Coke, 3-4g's a week for about two months last summer and still feeling that dent in my bank balance. Otherwise just the odd line off a coffee table or back of the card in the gents. Pills/MDMA/Speed etc quite erratic use, depends on night out but on a average night I might do 2-3 E's, I remember doing 9 one night because I just couldn't get the same buzz off 'em anymore. I took LSD once that wasn't too pleasant, shroomies couple times but never hit me as much as I thought they would, after a huge depression bout where i seriously contemplated suicide on several occassions and fell out with my whole family in a big way I started to tidy myself up a bit. Getting over the drugs isn't easy, it's possible but don't think for one second it' going to be easy. You don't have to do it alone though, ride on the wave of cliche's that others are there to help, samaritans are a dime a dozen these days. Just don't wait til you hit rock bottom before you realise something has to be done.
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