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Old 23-12-2019, 03:42 PM   #1
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A bit long and out there....Frustraiting situation

Hello Everyone,

I said this would be long, but will try to keep it short. So, the situation I am frustraited at is unbelievable to most. I have been getting attacked from a unseen person. From the family I get "your mentallly ill". I wish I was. I would take any pill to make it all stop.

Back in mid September I got contacted by a guy using common technology. He's a radio and computer specialist. He figured out what radio frequency the brain runs on and literally like a walkie talkie contacted me. Freaked me the hell out.

Long story short, he wants me to be at his side as a slave. "Initiate" as he calls it. Initiate of what I don't know. But he wants me to follow his commands or he punishes me in various ways. Psychologically at first. But pain is done using his "beams". He has 200 watt transmitters he aims at a spot and the feeling is similar to needles or a knife being jabbed in depending on power level.

The short story, I have attempted suicide 7 times trying to get away from it. The last one was very close and I remain in the hospital now recovering. We were FINALLY at peace for all of two days. That changed once again this morning. Now we are fighting again. Me resisting and him a promise of punishment of some kind. I am just sick of the daily fighting and lack of sleep. It wears you down. I am out of idea's. Thanks for letting me vent/share about this problem.

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Old 23-12-2019, 03:49 PM   #2
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Hi Stanley, that sounds scary. I'm sorry you're going through so much. Do you think this person can do the same thing to other people or is it just you? Why do you firmly believe it's not to do with mental illness, or could that be a possibility even if it doesn't seem that way right now? Did something happen over the 2 days that allowed you to have some peace, or was that due to the suicide attempt? Do you know what is going to happen once you have recovered physically, what sort of support you will have? I'd hate for you to continue to be tortured and feel like suicide is the only way out.

Sorry for all the questions.





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Old 23-12-2019, 04:07 PM   #3
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Hello,

Thanks for posting support. For your questions, can he do this to other people. Yes. He's done it to two already. They are already his slaves and help him "dealing" with me. I seem to have more resources of support than they did which saddens me. I understand they resisted a few weeks. I am on week 42 of resisting him (the main leader who calls himself simply E).

Why me, money and another slave. I guess because I am on disability it makes me a target.

How do I know it's not mental Illness? Simply because I caught them on a tape recorder talking. 18 such recordings. I have one posted here: https://soundcloud.com/stanley-thorn...ntors-chatting In the recording you can hear me and the other 3 talking back. You have to really turn up the volume, but you can hear them talking. So that's my hard core proof it's not all in my head as my mom tried to get me to believe.

For the peace, E realized with me still in the hospital it's not right to attack me. I mean how would he feel if it was him. But that seems to have rolled off his back as I have already been promised "punishment" later. And now punishment for even sharing this. Oh well. Going to get punished anyway. Might as well be for something I actually did.

Once I recover, things should actually be better. I will have even more resources than I do in the hospital. In the hospital I have a therapist, my cell phone and a laptop to give me contact with friends online and this board here. At home I can get distracted by TV, working on my main computer (I have a site of my own I can't really run from in the hospital), take care of my two cats and so on. So I think I will be able to resist more at home. Plus unlike before, I know the situation much better than I did when I first began overdosing. So I think I will be ok once I am home.

And no worries on the questions. I am happy to answer them if possible. I am still trying to figure out all the answers myself lol. Thanks for taking the time to post and for the support.

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Old 23-12-2019, 04:17 PM   #4
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It sounds like you have some better plans to manage things when you're discharged. What is your therapist saying about things?

What can we do for you here?





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Old 23-12-2019, 06:08 PM   #5
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Hello One Step Closer,

Yea, once discharged I am sure I can put up a better fight. In here I am limited. At the moment E is punishing me for even posting this post in the first place. He took the beam off of me. While that sounds good, it's bad health wise to come off cold terkey like that. It makes me feel sick. Like the flu.

I have been getting the energy from the beam for the full 42 weeks with a slight increase over time. I am currently on the full 200 watts. So to come off that it rough. So here I am hitting back with loud music. Evanescence is the artist of the moment. They don't like the loud music. It's a back and fourth hitting.

On what those can do here. Just listening is a huge help let me tell you. It's so hard to have this going on and not being believed. Despite the proof. My therapist thinks it's all in my head. I so wish it was. I really do.

To have it happening in real life with no escape but to move out of range of the beam is not even a option. They took the beam off this morning and my heart went nuts. Felt like all the blood in my heart had pumped through and was just pumping air. Very concerning feeling. And right in the middle of group. It does get scary at times with them. But just having a place to vent and get support is a big help.

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Old 23-12-2019, 07:19 PM   #6
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I'm glad we can help you by listening and giving you a place to vent. That sounds really scary and stressful to be dealing with.

I guess I'm also just wondering, if you are aware that this is a mental health forum, why you would post about this here if it's not a mental health issue? Or do you see this as a mental health issue?



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