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Need help getting over this.
I'm 29 year old male. Been in a relationship for 7 years and have 2 children. Before I meet this girl I been with for the last 7 years and had kids with I had sex with one girl that hung around my friends. Before we had sex I turned her down multiple times because she dated one of the guys that hung around my friends also and she had a reputation of having sex with alot of guys. Well after calling me a pussy and her calling my phone and asking if I was gay I gave in. I was drunk one night and she came over and I had sex with her. It wasn't the greatest. I was drunk and started to regret it immediately so the sex ended being horrible for both of us. Well then she decided to start telling people how horrible it was and I was devastated when people start asking me about it. I moved on and a year latter I met my now girlfriend of seven years. Me and my new girlfriend were out at a bar. A random girl came up to me right in front of my girlfriend and asked me if I knew of the girl I ****ed last year. Then she said that she knows alot about me in a smart ass voice. Then she said I herd you weren't that good. I was pissed off and felt so low. Well it's been years since then. Ive only had someone ask me once about the situation since then . I no I have a good life with 2 kids and a beautiful girlfriend but I can't get over that night when I was 21 and all the people she told. I still think to myself when I see that group of people if they talk about it or not or if she still tells people about it. Maybe I need closure. I'm afraid to bring it up 7 years later because I don't want it to start to be talked about again. I wish I could tell her she almost ruined me. Maybe I need closure. Any advice? I think about it alot for some reason.
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