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Old 16-03-2008, 10:33 AM   #21
Lil'MissLaLa
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Location: South West England
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Sometimes:
I really dnt no wat to do with myself..

No one realizes:
How hard things can get

I am so:
tired of fighting

People think:
they can solve all my problems just like tht!

Tonight I:
will probably just mope about as usual

It is hard to believe:
that i ended up in such a state

I realized that:
sometimes u just arent meant to make it

More than before:
I give up more each day

Obviously:
any break in my misery is temporary

I can not stop:
and just 'be'

Nothing matters if:
i cant be with him

All I want is:
to feel content within myself

Without even thinking:
about how bad things are

It is clear to me that:
its not gonna happen

I don't know:
How to sort this out

The only way:
is down - as usual

Its hard to tell:
how things turned out like this

The only person:
that really understood died

It kills me that:
I'll never see her again

If I were:
strong, i wouldnt be in this mess

It is not that I:
deserve it tho

If someone said:
'things'll get better' id wanna slap them

My life:
Is a mess of self-destruction

One thing I know is:
u can only really rely on ureself

I would never:
wish this on anyone

I can not stand:
ignorant ppl

Im sick of:
everyday being the same

Im afraid of:
****ing up all the time

The best:
thing thats ever happened to me is meeting my partner

Its weird that:
he sticks around

I do not have enough:
self control

I need:
a good kick up the arse

I love:
sleeping - its a rarity

I tried:
to get better but i failed as usual

I am starting to:
resent what I used to love.

For some reason:
I thought this would make it all better

I should:
Stop thinking about doing things and just do them.

I cant:
eat

Tomorrow:
i have to have an assessment tht will come of nothing

I cant wait until:
this is al over

I miss:
a lot of things

I always:
irritate ppl

My parents:
are ok one min and horrible the next

Someone:
is stupid enough to have me as a friend

My friends:
Seem to care

Valentines Day:
Is ok i guess

Parties:
can be fun

Why can't:
I just be 'normal'?!

I dont want:
To keep feeling like this

I have to:
get over myself

I will never:
be treated like 'he' treated me again

Marriage:
is good

Children:
can be little oyks!

It seems like:
I'm all alone inthis

I dread:
Going back to the doctor.

School:
was *****

The best food:
is the devils creation

Eventually:
i hope to be able to eat the best food!

Everyday:
Seems to be the same.

Rarely:
people listen to what i say

I still cannot decide:
where to go from here.

I am hoping:
thing'll seem brighter tomoro..yada yada..

The suspense:
depresses me

It turns out:
tht i only have myself to blame

Everything:
sucks!




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Old 16-03-2008, 12:28 PM   #22
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Location: Englandshire
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I will sleep in excess of 12 hours +


No one realizes:
How one decision will affect your life, no matter how small.

I am so:
hungry! bloody dieting.

People think:
but not often enough.

Tonight I:
have to do some economics work.

It is hard to believe:
alot of people.

I realized that:
you have to take control of your own destiny, not let other people judge it.

More than before:
????.

Obviously:
It's sunday.

I can not stop:
Being me.

Nothing matters if:
It turns out to be one big lie.

All I want is:
Immortality =P.

Without even thinking:
I will do something incredibly stupid.

It is clear to me that:
I'm starting to take control of me, without the outside influences.

I don't know:
What will make me truly happy.

The only way:
to go is forward.

Its hard to tell:
What's going to happen the next day


The only person:
that can truly influence you, is you.

It kills me that:
I know how being ****ed with feels.

If I were:
just like any normal person, I would be a complete dick.

It is not that I:
am a weirdo, i'm just different.

If someone said:
they understood me, i'd be happy.

My life:
has been one fuc*ing hell of an experience.

One thing I know is:
Trusting too early is the biggest bloody mistake someone can make.

I would never:
change for anyone.

I can not stand:
Extremists.

Im sick of:
Hayfever, already!.

Im afraid of:
Failing + Dying.

The best:
things seem to happen when you east expect it.

Its weird that:
I'm starting to understand.

I do not have enough:
understanding behind anything.

I need:
Money

I love:
The things that go right.

I tried:
to change other people, the biggest mistake I ever made.

I am starting to:
be more philosophical.

For some reason:
I thought I was doing the right thing.

I should:
Just do what I want to do.

I cant:
change me.

Tomorrow:
I waste too much time at college, bloody mass.

I cant wait until:
I become truly independent.

I miss:
Benig geniunely happy.

I always:
Finish what I start.

My parents:
are bloody amazing.

Someone:
is thinking about you.

My friends:
Are different.

Valentines Day:
Is a money-making scam.

Parties:
are childish *nods*.

Why can't:
I just have what I really want.

I dont want:
To fail.

I have to:
Take control.

I will never:
Let anyone walk over me, ever again.

Marriage:
can be the biggest mistake or the best thing you ever do, even though it's against our genetic make up.

Children:
.....

It seems like:
No-one agrees with what I think.

I dread:
Running into someone from school, for their sake.

School:
was terrible.

The best food:
never lasts long enough.

Eventually:
I will be different & successful.

Everyday:
Seems to be the same.

Rarely:
people underestand my way of thinking.

I still cannot decide:
Whether to make a drink or not.

I am hoping:
The success happens sooner rather than later.

The suspense:
makes me feel uneasy.

It turns out:
that alot of people are wasting their lives.

Everything:
is different.

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Old 16-03-2008, 04:44 PM   #23
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I am currently:

Sometimes:
I can't stand people

No one realizes:
how much I struggle somedays

I am so:
tired

People think:
they are very important

Tonight I:
will go to bed early

It is hard to believe:
i'm 1 month cut free

I realized that:
he's just so right... about somethings

More than before:
I wanna make something of myself

Obviously:
i'm not what I should be to them

I can not stop:
hoping it'll be better in the future

Nothing matters if:
this isn't worth it

All I want is:
to be happy again

Without even thinking:
I swear

It is clear to me that:
i'm not as optimistic as I once was

I don't know:
how to talk to them

The only way:
is to keep going

Its hard to tell:
if i'm gunna make it

The only person:
I truly love and trust, she hates

It kills me that:
she hates him

If I were:
a little stronger, i'd be a little happier

It is not that I:
want to be perfect, just something they love

If someone said:
life was easy, i'd laugh, hard

My life:
is a web of lies

One thing I know is:
you can only rely completely on yourself

I would never:
let anyone feel this way

I can not stand:
humankind

Im sick of:
wanting to bleed

Im afraid of:
slipping up

The best:
memories are from the year before last, even though I didn't know it then

Its weird that:
this is who I am

I do not have enough:
strength

I need:
stength

I love:
the people I trust

I tried:
giving up before

I am starting to:
realise what this is all about

For some reason:
I made the right choice last night

I should:
talk to more people

I cant:
do this without some people

Tomorrow:
i'll feel awkward around him

I cant wait until:
i'm a year cut free

I miss:
feeling happy

I always:
get lost in thoughts

My parents:
wish I was somebody else

Someone:
always cares

My friends:
care about me, even though I try to convince myself they don't

Valentines Day:
is bollocks

Parties:
are fun

Why can't:
I have never started this

I dont want:
to cut anymore

I have to:
move forward

I will never:
be what they want

Marriage:
is a possibility

Children:
is a future aspiration

It seems like:
nobody listens sometimes

I dread:
my test tomorrow >.<

School:
is long gone

The best food:
is chocolate

Eventually:
I hope i'll be okay

Everyday:
is something new

Rarely:
I get enough sleep

I still cannot decide:
whether I want to go to Uni

I am hoping:
i'll figure it out

The suspense:
has gone

It turns out:
that somebody does understand who isn't in this situation

Everything:
happens for a reason



You can't lose hope when it's hopeless.
You gotta hope more,
then put your fingers in your ears and go,
"Blah blah blah blah!"


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Old 16-03-2008, 05:14 PM   #24
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Location: london
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I'm happy

No one realizes:
how unhappy i am

I am so:
bored

People think:
i vare about them

Tonight I:
will finish my coursework.

It is hard to believe:
i got that job

I realized that:
life can get better

More than before:
I realized i love you

Obviously:
money is not everything

I can not stop:
smoking

Nothing matters if:
your in my life

All I want is:
you to understand me

Without even thinking:
i light up a fag

It is clear to me that:
I've lost my phone

I don't know:
how ive got through college this year

The only way:
is up!

Its hard to tell:
if you will ever be ok

The only person:
who bright light to my life is gone.

It kills me that:
I can never see you again

If I were:
a bird i would fly away.

It is not that I:
want to be like this, its how it is.

If someone said:
i understand, i would say your lieing.

My life:
Is a big mess

One thing I know is:
college sucks

I would never:
let you go

I can not stand:
busy places

Im sick of:
the same old crap

Im afraid of:
you leaving

The best:
thing is my friends

Its weird that:
life has changed so much.

I do not have enough:
money!

I need:
sanity

I love:
my world

I tried:
to stop myself

I am starting to:
belive you

For some reason:
i throught you loved me

I should:
Stop loving you

I cant:
think of a future.

Tomorrow:
I'm not going college!

I cant wait until:
I go no holiday

I miss:
my happy life

I always:
get things wrong

My parents:
are the best

Someone:
is loving you

My friends:
are the family i picked for myself

Valentines Day:
i hate it

Parties:
are the best

Why can't:
I just be happy

I dont want:
to fail college

I have to:
move on

I will never:
move on

Marriage:
is not my thing

Children:
are great until they can speak

It seems like:
i'm the only one in the world

I dread:
people seeing my arms.

School:
is crap

The best food:
is celery

Eventually:
i will move on in life.

Everyday:
is the same old crap

Rarely:
people understand me

I still cannot decide:
what to do after this

I am hoping:
i will mever give up fighting.

The suspense:
kills me

It turns out:
that life is not as simple as people make out

Everything:
never makes seens.



" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB

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Old 16-03-2008, 08:42 PM   #25
Psiren
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Location: Warrington, UK
I am currently:

Sometimes:
Everything isn't so bad.

No one realizes:
How self destructive I can really be.

I am so:
Fat.


People think:
I matter.

Tonight I:
want to tear my eyes out.

It is hard to believe:
your own lies.

I realized that:
my friends mean more to me than they know.

More than before:
I fail.

Obviously:
I'm not getting 'better'.

I can not stop:
yet.

Nothing matters if:
no one cares.

All I want is:
to be happy.

Without even thinking:
I say stupid things.

It is clear to me that:
I'm becoming apathetic.

I don't know:
if I'll get up next time I fall down.

The only way:
is the hard way.

Its hard to tell:
who real any more.

The only person:
I can talk to lives on the other side of the country.

It kills me that:
I can't ask for help.

If I were:
thin it would be better

It is not that I:
stopped caring.

If someone said:
I looked beautiful they'd be lying.

My life:
gives me no reason to feel like this.

One thing I know is:
beauty > brains

I would never:
get there.

I can not stand:
people ****ing around with my friends.

Im sick of:
this.

Im afraid of:
lots of things.

The best:
things aren't always free.

Its weird that:
I am like this.

I do not have enough:
sense.

I need:
to stop being apathetic and DO SOMETHING.

I love:
daydreams.

I tried:
and failed.

I am starting to:
break.

For some reason:
I thought I had a chance.

I should:
stop.

I cant:
stop.

Tomorrow:
means college. And the probablility that I feel like ****.

I cant wait until:
I hit that goal.

I miss:
when things were simple.

I always:
**** up somehow.

My parents:
love me.

Someone:
somewhere feels the same way you do.

My friends:
have started to drift away.

Valentines Day:
can **** off.

Parties:
are just a way to get drunk and forget.

Why can't:
I do this?

I dont want:
To be like this forever.

I have to:
work harder.

I will never:
get that.

Marriage:
scares me. It's not happening.

Children:
are tasty.

It seems like:
the road is getting more slippery.

I dread:
the scales every morning.

School:
equals stress.

The best food:
is calorie free.

Eventually:
everything starts to look brighter.

Everyday:
I love me less and less.

Rarely:
my head stops being a hige mind****.

I still cannot decide:
what I want.

I am hoping:
things will be okay in the end.

The suspense:
is killing me.

It turns out:
I have fewer people I can talk to than I though.

Everything:
is just atoms.






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Old 16-03-2008, 11:20 PM   #26
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Join Date: Aug 2004
Location: Nottingham, UK
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I cry for no reason.

No one realizes:
How scared and terrified I am.

I am so:
in love


People think:
I'm special.

Tonight I:
get to talk to my sexy lover for ages.

It is hard to believe:
I've met someone who loves me.

I realized that:
my friends are the most amazing thing in my life.

More than before:
I love my boyfriend.

Obviously:
I'm a girl.

I can not stop:
Laughing and being happy.

Nothing matters if:
I fail.

All I want is:
Him. Forever.

Without even thinking:
I tickle my boyfriend.

It is clear to me that:
England is not where I want to spend my life.

I don't know:
About my future.

The only way:
is up.

Its hard to tell:
Where I'll end up.

The only person:
That matters is yourself.

It kills me that:
I'm moving on from my school and college friends.

If I were:
Poor, everything would mean the world to me.

It is not that I:
don't care, I just don't show it.

If someone said:
"I love you" I feel so happy.

My life:
Has ended up right where I wanted it.

One thing I know is:
If I died now, I'd be happy with my decisions.

I would never:
Change.

I can not stand:
Racism.

Im sick of:
Missing him.

Im afraid of:
Losing him.

The best:
thing in my life so far is this moment. Every moment is better than the last.

Its weird that:
I'm finally 100% happy.

I do not have enough:
Patience.

I need:
My friends.

I love:
Friends, family.

I tried:
my hardest at everything.

I am starting to:
understand him.

For some reason:
I thought it was a lie.

I should:
Love him more.

I cant:
wait for anything.

Tomorrow:
I shop.

I cant wait until:
I go back to uni after Easter vacation.

I miss:
My uni friends.

I always:
Try.

My parents:
The best.

Someone:
loves me.

My friends:
Are the best friends ever.

Valentines Day:
Is ridiculous but it's the one day my boyfriend can be so cheesy and none of his friends laugh at him because they do the same.

Parties:
Are pointless.

Why can't:
Life always be this perfect.

I dont want:
To fall out of love.

I have to:
Cuddle him.

I will never:
Change.

Marriage:
Is in my future.

Children:
Are cute.

It seems like:
People really like me for me.

I dread:
Going backwards in life.

School:
Was horrible.

The best food:
Is from the poorest countries.

Eventually:
I will graduate.

Everyday:
Gets better.

Rarely:
I'm sad.

I still cannot decide:
Whether to change my degree.

I am hoping:
to surprise him.

The suspense:
Keeps everyone on edge.

It turns out:
I love myself and I really can be arrogant.

Everything:
is anything.



And you say I only hear what I want to.

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Old 17-03-2008, 01:10 PM   #27
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: -
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I laugh at myself

No one realizes:
I'm lonely

I am so:
Sleepy

People think:
One bad moment should affect everything

Tonight I:
Will read Neverwhere

It is hard to believe:
That I look different from others

I realized that:
I'm not happy

More than before:
I express how I feel

Obviously:
I'm in love with Gene Wilder

I can not stop:
Breathing

Nothing matters if:
You're forgiven

All I want is:
To get on with it all

Without even thinking:
I bite my nails

It is clear to me that:
Gene Wilder will never love me

I don't know:
What to do with myself

The only way:
Is Jesus

Its hard to tell:
If I love or am apathetic

The only person:
I want I can't have

It kills me that:
I did it

If I were:
Well I'd do everything

It is not that I:
don't want love, I just don't understand it

If someone said:
"Are you ok?" I'd probably say yes

My life:
Can get much better

One thing I know is:
I'm loved very much

I would never:
Be able to live alone

I can not stand:
Kiera Knightly

Im sick of:
My body

Im afraid of:
Everything

The best:
Things in life are free

Its weird that:
Hardly anyone knows I'm disabled

I do not have enough:
socks

I need:
To see my man more

I love:
You

I tried:
To grow my nails on both hands, but I can only manage one at a time!

I am starting to:
Talk a lot more

For some reason:
My dog likes me to hold her nose

I should:
Go and have a bath

I cant:
Do much

Tomorrow:
Is Tuesday

I cant wait until:
Momentum

I miss:
School

I always:
Grind my teeth

My parents:
Are loveing

Someone:
Out there needs to know they're loved

My friends:
Are bizarre

Valentines Day:
is my cousin's birthday

Parties:
Are overated

Why can't:
People be more honest

I dont want:
Food

I have to:
Be social

I will never:
Repeat myself (lies)

Marriage:
Can be wonderful

Children:
Can be bastards

It seems like:
This survey is very long, but I cant stop

I dread:
Being weighed

School:
Was a fairytale

The best food:
Is pancakes

Eventually:
I'll get better

Everyday:
Is worth it

Rarely:
You'll see me cry

I still cannot decide:
What shampoo to buy next

I am hoping:
Scissors will live forever

The suspense:
is KILLING me

It turns out:
it's not

Everything:
is light



F r e d d i e

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Old 27-03-2008, 05:20 AM   #28
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I am currently:

Sometimes:
I wish I was dead.
No one realizes:
how cruel the world is.
I am so:
done with this
People think:
that there is actually some good in everyone.
Tonight I:
will survive.
It is hard to believe:
that this is my life.
I realized that:
Nothing will ever be the same.
More than before:
I wish i was someone else.
Obviously:
I do not have enough hope and strength.
I can not stop:
this vicious cycle.
Nothing matters if:everything were to die off.
All I want is:
to be perfect in your eyes.
Without even thinking:
I find myself comparing myself to others.
It is clear to me that:
I've given up.
I don't know:
it got this bad.
The only way:
things would get better is if I were to disappear.
Its hard to tell:
if I'll make it.
The only person:
who seemed to be there for me disappeared.
It kills me that:
I actually thought this was the way.
If I were:
just a little bit stronger, it wouldn't hurt as much.
It is not that I:
was happier before, its just that I cant take it anymore.
If someone said:
that they actually cared, I wouldn't believe them.
My life:
Is meaningless.
One thing I know is:
is that it will never get better.
I would never:
have hope again.
I can not stand:
myself anymore.
Im sick of:
Feeling like this.
Im afraid of:
being not good enough.
The best:
thing that has ever happened to me was definitly not this.
Its weird that:
I have no control anymore.
I do not have enough:
strength to carry on like this anymore.
I need:
love.
I love:
being numb.
I tried:
to be perfect, but ended up being even more messed up.
I am starting to:
hate what I've become.
For some reason:
I thought that this would make life easier for me.
I should:
stop being so stupid and accept people's love and help.
I cant:
just stop and leave it all behind because I am too scared.
Tomorrow:
I will break; Im so sure of it.
I cant wait until:
I die.
I miss:
the way things used to be.
I always:
wish I was someone else.
My parents:
are liars, betrayers, and selfish.
Someone:
is dying from this right now.
My friends:
pretend to get it when they haven't the slightest idea.
Valentines Day:
is stupid and i hope it dies off.
Parties:
are fun.
Why can't:
I just make through a day without this crazyness in my head.
I dont want:
To continue.
I have to:
move forward.
I will never:
be okay again.
Marriage:
is for..erm...people who love each other...?
Children:
are underestimated.
It seems like:
Im the only one who's messed up in my whole family and friends.
I dread:
Going back to the doctor.
School:
Makes me forget.
The best food:
is never in my mouth.
Eventually:
people will give up on me.
Everyday:
Seems to be the same.




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Old 01-05-2008, 01:18 AM   #29
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Location: Glasgow
I am currently:

"Finish off the sentence" survey


Sometimes:
I think the rest of the world is in on the joke that is my life.

No one realizes:
How close to the edge I've been.

I am so:
uncomfortable around males.

People think:
too much.

Tonight I:
really hope to distract myself enough to not sh.

It is hard to believe:
that I have no friends at all.

I realized that:
I will probably always resort to sh when things get hard.

More than before:
I don't enjoy things.

Obviously:
No one knows that I need to be loved.

I can not stop:
thinking about hurting me.

Nothing matters if:
I could just forget.

All I want is:
a hug.

Without even thinking:
you could get into trouble.

It is clear to me that:
no one will ever really love me.

I don't know:
how to stay safe.

The only way:
is up, baby.

Its hard to tell:
the future.

The only person:

who understood me, left me.

It kills me that:
I don't have any friends.

If I were:
not here, things would be a lot easier for everyone else.

It is not that I:
want to go, it is just what seems logical sometimes.

If someone said:
they wouldn't leave me I would know to expect it soon.

My life:
could be worse.

One thing I know is:
I know very little.

I would never:
hurt anyone else.


I can not stand:
homophobia.

Im sick of:
myself.

Im afraid of:
living too long.

The best:
is a Tina Turner song that I can't play at work 'cause it causes too many arguments.

It's weird that:
I'm still filling this in.

I do not have enough:
fight left in me to fight alone.

I need:
help.

I love:
cuddling.

I tried:
hard but am still struggling.

I am starting to:
get tired.

For some reason:
people do not like me.

I should:
go to sleep.

I can't:
get over the past.

Tomorrow:
I will have to start fighting all over again.

I can't wait until:
my brain shuts off.

I miss:
getting kissed and cuddled.

I always:
think too much.

My parents:
think everything's ok.

Someone:
has friends, I'm not someone, I'm no one.

My friends:
..are all in my head.

Valentines Day:
is missunderstood. It's Saint Valentine's Day.

Parties:
what are they?

Why can't:
someone hold me or love me just for being me.

I don't want:
to have these thoughts anymore.

I have to:
get help.

I will never:
let anyone hurt me again.

Marriage:
is a scary word.

Children:
can bug me sometimes.

It seems like:
no one can hear me screaming.

I dread:
what will happen to me the next time I stay in hospital.

School:
was awful.

The best food:
is brain food.

Eventually:
I will be at peace.

Everyday:
it's a gettin' closer, Goin' faster than a roller coaster.

Rarely:
I feel happy or calm.

I still cannot decide:
which film to watch next.

I am hoping:
my soulmate will find me and rescue me from myself soon.

The suspense:
is annoying...I want to know everything and I want to know it NOW!

It turns out:
that I am crazy.

Everything:
comes to an end...like this quiz...



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Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight"

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Old 04-05-2008, 01:04 PM   #30
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I am currently:

Sometimes:
I wonder how it all went wrong.

No one realizes:
Just how worthless they make me feel.

I am so:
Sick of being treated like crap

People think:
I'm okay... but I'm really not.

Tonight I:
Will do the same as every other night... long to be with him.

It is hard to believe:
That I used to be happy and carefree.

I realized that:
You can't count on anyone but yourself.

More than before:
I wish he'd be mine.

Obviously:
It's never gonna happen.

I can not stop:
Thinking about him.

Nothing matters if:
I'm with him.

All I want is:
For people to like me.

Without even thinking:
I automatically spend all day... thinking!!!

It is clear to me that:
I don't belong there anymore.

I don't know:
Why I bother sometimes.

The only way:
I'll get over him is to move on from that place.

Its hard to tell:
Anyone how I feel

The only person:
Who knows the whole truth, is me.

It kills me that:
I'm not good enough for him.

If I were:
Ruler of the world, I'd scrap the whole idea of money, and just get people to trade stuff.

It is not that I:
don't want to move on, it's that I CAN'T

If someone said:
I was stupid, I'd agree.

My life:
Is either a tragedy.... or a comedy... depending on how you look at it!

One thing I know is:
I'll never forget him.

I would never:
Deliberately hurt another living thing.

I can not stand:
Feeling like this.

Im sick of:
Always falling for guys who aren't prepared to catch me.

Im afraid of:
Fear

The best:
Things in life are usually the things that in the longrun will do you more harm than good.

Its weird that:
No-one else can see the chemistry.

I do not have enough:
Patience anymore.

I need:
To move on.

I love:
Robbie

I tried:
To move on, so many times, but it's hopeless.

I am starting to:
Give up

For some reason:
I like him even though he treats me like sh*t

I should:
Move away somewhere nice.

I cant:
Be bothered anymore.

Tomorrow:
Is another day.

I cant wait until:
I see him again.

I miss:
Felix

I always:
Want what I can't have.

My parents:
Are so special.

Someone:
Help me!!

My friends:
Are in my computer.

Valentines Day:
Depresses me.

Parties:
Are scary

Why can't:
I have him???

I dont want:
Anybody else

I have to:
Find out how he feels about me.

I will never:
Learn!

Marriage:
Is something I'd like to do one day

Children:
Have no idea the hell that is waiting for them when they grow up.

It seems like:
I'm stuck in a trap

I dread:
Every day from now on.

School:
Is a horrible memory.

The best food:
Is chocolate!!!

Eventually:
All good things must come to an end.

Everyday:
I love you.

Rarely:
Have I told someone what I really think of them.

I still cannot decide:
Whether he likes me or hates me!

I am hoping:
He'll tell me he likes me.

The suspense:
Is killing me

It turns out:
I like him more than I had planned to.

Everything:
Will be alright in the end. If it's not alright, it's not the end.



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Too Shy is my Little Sister! Kiran is my Purple Pot Plant!
Lanny is my Sparkly Donkey!
^ I LOVE THEM!!! ^
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and
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Old 04-05-2008, 02:19 PM   #31
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Location: Lost.
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I can see a speckle of hope.

No one realizes:
How scared I am.


I am so:
Lost.

People think:
I'm going to be ok.

Tonight I:
Will try to fight, just like every other night.

It is hard to believe:
How ignorant people can be.....?

I realized that:
I really am, a mess up.

More than before:
I am dependant upon others.

Obviously:
This isn't great!

I can not stop:

Thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking.....

Nothing matters if:
I can't change.

All I want is:
To feel safe.... and to smile a real smile.

Without even thinking:
Time passes by.....

It is clear to me that:
I am going to fall.

I don't know:
How to make all of this better.


The only way:
There are two ways..... I would prefer to try one than the other.

Its hard to tell:
Whether there is any hope....

The only person:

I am worried about right now, I can't protect.

It kills me that:
I have made myself this way.

If I were:
Just different, better, tougher, stronger, brighter, PERFECT.

It is not that I:
Don't want to let this go, I just don't know how too?

If someone said:
They will always be there for me, no matter what, catch me whenever I fall..... it might make a difference.

My life:
Is a mess..... A life of wishing and trying..... failing..... fighting......

One thing I know is:
I am going to fall. Again.

I would never:
Hurt anyone on purpose.

I can not stand:

Rudeness..... Arrogance, Ignorance, Disrespectfulness.....

Im sick of:
Being this way.

Im afraid of:
Falling.... and being alone.

The best:
People in the world, I tried to push away.

Its weird that:

No matter how hard I try.... it's still there.

I do not have enough:
Energy to fight.

I need:
Someone to carry me for a bit.

I love:
Those people who have stuck by me.

I tried:
To be perfect.... I failed.

I am starting to:
Think maybe, trying to be perfect isn't something I will ever achieve.

For some reason:
I wish I could go to sleep until all of this is better.

I should:
Just pull myself together.... get on with things.

I cant:
^ Do the above.

Tomorrow:
Is another day of fighting.

I cant wait until:
This is all better.

I miss:
So many things, that I wish I had now.

I always:
Manage to mess things up.

My parents:
Are fantastic.

Someone:
Is in need of help.

My friends:
Don't seem to understand, or care, it's better for them if they know less.

Valentines Day:

Is always rubbish when you have no one to share it with.

Parties:
Are not something I enjoy.

Why can't:
I get rid of all the nastiness inside of me.

I dont want:
To lose everything.

I have to:

Try.

I will never:
Forget about the people who have helped me reach this far.

Marriage:
Is something I would like.

Children:
Are something I would like to have when I am older.

It seems like:
I am alone.

I dread:
Everything.......

School:
Makes me anxious and upset.....

The best food:
Is food that has no calories.

Eventually:
Things will change.

Everyday:
I fight, and fight.

Rarely:
People understand what I mean.

I still cannot decide:
How to make this better.

I am hoping:
That things will become clearer.

The suspense:

Makes me feel even more hopeless.

It turns out:
People do seem to care......

Everything:
Will make sense....... One day.



-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-



Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
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Old 28-07-2008, 11:32 PM   #32
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Location: UK
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I have to question my sanity!!

No one realizes:
Just how lonely and unloved I feel

I am so:
Jealous of her.

People think:
I'm quiet.... there are a few who could tell you I'm NOT!

Tonight I:
Hope to go to bed earlier.

It is hard to believe:
That I was ever happy

I realized that:
I'm a better person than the one she's trying to break me down to.

More than before:
I want him

Obviously:
It's not worth being a nice person.

I can not stop:
Thinking about him.

Nothing matters if:
I can't be with him.


All I want is:
For once, me to get the guy I want

Without even thinking:
I set up the piano!

It is clear to me that:
Men suck!!

I don't know:
If I'm ever going to recover from this.

The only way:
Is up!

Its hard to tell:
That someone just how much you love them

The only person:
Standing in my way is R.

It kills me that:
He won't be mine

If I were:
A bitch, I'd fight dirty for him!!

It is not that I:
Want to move on, more that I NEED to.

If someone said:
Something nice about me, I wouldn't believe it.

My life:
Is a disappointment at the moment

One thing I know is:
Life goes on

I would never:
Hurt a living thing deliberately.

I can not stand:
Materialistic people!

Im sick of:
Falling in love with people that I can't be with.

Im afraid of:
Being alone

The best:
Works of art come from intense pain and suffering.

Its weird that:
I can cross just one eye!!!

I do not have enough:
Strength to get through this

I need:
Robbie

I love:
Robbie

I tried:
To explain to him how I feel, but don't think he gets it.

I am starting to:
Despise the idea of love

For some reason:
He would rather have a blonde bimbo instead!

I should:
Be so lucky!

I cant:
Get him out of my head

Tomorrow:
I hope to get a lot done

I cant wait until:
My holiday!

I miss:
Certain people

I always:
Ruin things

My parents:
Are amazing!!!!

Someone:
Help me!

My friends:
Live in my computer!!! And they're amazing!!

Valentines Day:
Holds bad memories for me!!

Parties:
Are not the biggest deal to me

Why can't:
He love me back?

I dont want:
Anyone else but him.

I have to:
Try and get it in my head that THEY'RE together and WE never will be.

I will never:
Forget this situation.

Marriage:
Is something I may do later in life

Children:
Are irritating, but probably wouldn't be if they were my own.

It seems like:
I'm meant to be alone

I dread:
Having to face this situation again

School:
Was a bad time

The best food:
Is always bad for you

Eventually:
The pain will die down

Everyday:
I long to be with him

Rarely:
Do I let people know how I really feel

I still cannot decide:
What to do for the best

I am hoping:
He will realise what he's let go, dump her and seek me out.... by which time I may have moved on!!

The suspense:
Is agonising

It turns out:
They've been seeing each other all along.

Everything:
Happens for a reason




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Too Shy is my Little Sister! Kiran is my Purple Pot Plant!
Lanny is my Sparkly Donkey!
^ I LOVE THEM!!! ^
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Old 29-07-2008, 05:56 PM   #33
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Location: uk
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I can’t be bothered to pretend

No one realizes:
That it’s all an act and that I’m dying on the inside

I am so:
quiet as good as invisible

People think:
They can pass judgement on other people’s belief if it contradicts their own

Tonight I:

Will fall asleep listening to my ipod hoping that tomorrow is a better day

It is hard to believe:
that true love exists

I realized that:

I am my own worst enemy

More than before:
I am closed off and introverted

Obviously:
The world goes on even if you are not in it.

I can not stop:

Worrying about others

Nothing matters if:
you don’t regret it

All I want is:
blind Happiness

Without even thinking:
I would do anything, go anywhere for my friends

It is clear to me that:
we all see the world differently and I don’t think that’s a bad thing

I don't know:
if I’ll get good results on my gcse’s

The only way:
to survive in this world is to be confident in yourself

Its hard to tell:
If they mean what they say



The only person:
that really annoyed me from school is moving to a different 6th form

It kills me that:
There are people in this world suffering so much

If I were:
able to do magic I’d reset my life so I could start over again

It is not that I:
want to bottle everything up inside, it’s just that its too hard for me to let it out

If someone said:

They were in love with me I’d think they were lying

My life:
is like a film and I’m just waiting for the happy ending to come

One thing I know is:

That I can count on my friends for anything

I would never:
laugh at someones problems and say they were too trivial

I can not stand:
the habit of smoking

Im sick of:
life

Im afraid of:
rejection

The best:
things in life never seem to happen to the people that deserve it the most

Its weird that:
I can ramble on for ages about something random but when it comes to talking about my own feelings I get stuck for words

I do not have enough:
self confidence or self esteem


I need:
someone to tell me what it is that I need

I love:
my friends

I tried:
to make you understand but you just don’t care anymore



I am starting to:
fall back into my old ways

For some reason:
I thought life would get better

I should:
just dissapear

I cant:

Stand to look at myself in the mirror

Tomorrow:
is something that never comes

I cant wait until:
I stop drowning

I miss:
the blissful innocence of childhood

I always:
fall asleep with my ipod in

My parents:
don’t notice anything

Someone:
said to me once while we were sitting in a park with friends, that they were pissed at me for being depressed. They left after that to find “better company” I forgave them but it will always be there in the back of my mind.

My friends:
mean the world to me. Without them I would no longer be in this world

Valentines Day:.
sickens me


Parties:
alienate me

Why can't:
people notice me

I dont want:
to continue living like this

I have to:
keep going

I will never:
let people walk all over me again

Marriage:
is something I’d like to have but can’t imagine loving someone so much you want to spend the rest of your life with them

Children:
are born innocent

It seems like:
I’ll never see the light

I dread:
waking up the next day

School:
helps me forget

The best food:
is made by my mom

Eventually:
Life gets better

Everyday:
I have to listen to MCR

Rarely:
people see the true me

I still cannot decide:.
what I want to do with my life


I am hoping:
I won’t regret what I choose

The suspense:
is the worst bit

It turns out:
I’m a horrible person

Everything:
has to come to an end

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Old 31-07-2008, 03:05 AM   #34
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Location: Miskatonic university
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I do bad things

No one realizes:
How long I've been left alone in my own mind to go insane

I am so:

Hopelessly lost without someone else here.

People think:
I'm a good person

Tonight I:
Will continue pretending I'm somebody else so I can live another day

It is hard to believe:
That I'm still alive

I realized that:
I'm nothing

More than before:
I need somebody in my arms

Obviously:
I want to give it all away

I can not stop:
Thinking like this

Nothing matters if:
Nobody cares

All I want is:
somebody to keep me company

Without even thinking:
I have dark thoughts

It is clear to me that:
It's hopeless

I don't know:
Why I even bother

The only way:
I'll live is to die

Its hard to tell:
If I'll keep my resolve

The only person:
I loved hates me

It kills me that:
I'm too strong to give up

If I were:
Happy, I'd be better off

It is not that I:
Want to hurt anybody, it's just too hard right now

If someone said:
I love you, I'd be happy

My life:
Is insane

One thing I know is:
things aren't always what they seem

I would never:
give up so easily

I can not stand:
people

Im sick of:
pushing so hard and always coming up short

Im afraid of:
Nothing

The best:
is not always truly what it seems

Its weird that:
I'm still here

I do not have enough:
Charisma

I need:
A girlfriend

I love:
Videogames

I tried:
Too much, too often, just to fail

I am starting to:
Realise too much about myself

For some reason:
I thought I could be loved


I should:
try to get back some amount of trying

I cant:
Give in so easy

Tomorrow:
I have to work

I cant wait until:
I get a new girl

I miss:
How it used to be

I always:
Have horrible dreams

My parents:
Are afraid of me

Someone:
needs to pay

My friends:
Are the only people I think could ever care about me

Valentines Day:
Is a day thats high in suicide rates

Parties:
Are complete and utter bullshit

Why can't:
You people understand?

I dont want:
to give up

I have to:
Come out of my shell

I will never:
Let allow myself to feel so vulnerable again.

Marriage:
Is a far off fantasy that is most peoples lives

Children:
Are strange

It seems like:
I should stop trying

I dread:
Being alone forever

School:
is meaningless

The best food:
I make

Eventually:
We will all be forgotten

Everyday:
Sucks worse than the last

Rarely:
soes anyone give me a thought

I still cannot decide:
What to do with my life

I am hoping:
I can figure it out

The suspense:
Kills people

It turns out:
I'm still right

Everything:
is pointless



Take me away, I just want out from this self-imprisoned self-made Hell. Don't be surprsed, this is your mind coming to life by self-sacrifice. This tragedy of death will walk hand in hand with every thought of regret. Blame yourself for what you've become. The mind is a powerful thing set to self-destruct.
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Old 31-07-2008, 03:49 AM   #35
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Location: UK
I am currently:

Sometimes:
I feel ugly.

No one realizes:
how far down I'm falling.

I am so:
screwed.

People think:
I'm a good, caring person.

Tonight I:
will stay awake to burn calories and then tell my mother my cough kept me up.

It is hard to believe:
how ungrateful and selfish I am.

I realized that:
I need to be thinner.

More than before:
I need to be in control.

Obviously:
I am a complete idiot.

I can not stop:
this thing that is eating me whole.

Nothing matters if:
I have cigarettes and alcohol.

All I want is:
to be happy.

Without even thinking:
I self destruct.

It is clear to me that:
I don't deserve to live amongst normal people.

I don't know:
why I get up in the morning.

The only way:
to survive this and stay sane is to get thin.

Its hard to tell:
if I'll keep my resolve.

The only person:
I ever loved will never want me the way I want her.

It kills me that:
we can't be together.

If I were:
thin, things would be better.

It is not that I:
want attention, or to upset people, I just want control.

If someone said:
something good about me I'd hate them for lying.

My life:
is fine, I just can't stop lviing in the past.

One thing I know is:
this will never go away.

I would never:
tell anybody the truth about what goes on in my head.

I can not stand:
compliments right now.

Im sick of:
sticking around for everybody else, caring for everybody else.

Im afraid of:
myself.

The best:
thing to do, is to just keep going, don't think.

Its weird that:
I'm awake at this time.

I do not have enough:
willpower.

I need:
to gain control.

I love:
smoking.

I tried:
to quit, temporarily, it didn't work out.

I am starting to:
realise what a **** up I am.

For some reason:
I thought I deserved to get better.


I should:
restrict better.

I cant:
give in so easily to temptation.

Tomorrow:
will be exactly the same.

I cant wait until:
I lose weight.

I miss:
feeling ok about myself.

I always:
feel insecure.

My parents:
don't deserve someone so ****ed up.

Someone:
needs to give me a slap.

My friends:
are ace.

Valentines Day:
is a day I will Never send anything on again.

Parties:
can be fun if there's enough alcohol.

Why can't:
anybody see this?

I dont want:
to stay this way.

I have to:
lose weight.

I will never:
trust anybody again.

Marriage:
works if you are both in love and stay that way.

Children:
are irritating.

It seems like:
I should stop trying to get better.

I dread:
the rest of my life.

School:
never suited me.

The best food:
is low in calorie and nice tasting.

Eventually:
I will look in the mirror and be proud.

Everyday:
I have to button my lip, force a smile and get on with my pointless existence.

Rarely:
do people notice anymore.

I still cannot decide:
between letting this take control and fighting for recovery.

I am hoping:
college will be the answer.

The suspense:
of my exam results is doing my head in.

It turns out:
I'm still the girl people ask 'would you rather have diet coke' with raised eyebrows, as if to ask how someone as ugly as me as the audacity to drink normal coke.

Everything:
is hollow and pointless.



'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'

['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']

'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
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Old 31-07-2008, 05:57 AM   #36
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Sometimes:
I need to know someone cares.

No one realizes:
That inside I’m breaking.

I am so:
Tired.

People think:
I’m fine.

Tonight I:
Will try to get some sleep.

It is hard to believe:
It’s been almost a year since I first started SH.

I realized that:
Things take time to get better.

More than before:
I try to live every day of my life to the fullest.

Obviously:
I fail sometimes.

I can not stop:
Being afraid that I’ll say or do something stupid.

Nothing matters if:
You don’t try your hardest.

All I want is:
To be happy.

Without even thinking:
I can feel the magic in the world.

It is clear to me that:
I need to be around other people more.

I don't know:
If I’ll be able to ever be myself.

The only way:
To see if something gets better is to try it.

Its hard to tell:
Why I feel this way.

The only person:
Who can change how I’m feeling is me.

It kills me that:
That I hurt the people around me.

If I were:
More confident in myself I would get out more.

It is not that I:
Have it really bad, I just can’t seem to find my place.

If someone said:
“Lets do something this weekend,” I’d probably say no thanks.

My life:
Is the same day over and over again.

One thing I know is:
I can’t give up.

I would never:
Do what he did.

I can not stand:
People with no respect for life.

Im sick of:
People making fun of the things I care about.

Im afraid of:
Being forgotten.

The best:
Things in the world are said without words.

Its weird that:
We always want the things we can’t have.

I do not have enough:
Time to waste.

I need:
A friend.

I love:
To dream.

I tried:
So hard to fix everything I’ve messed up for myself.

I am starting to:
Just let myself be.

For some reason:
Things don’t work out like you’d think.

I should:
Do the things I want to do and not worry.

I cant:
Lose myself.

Tomorrow:
I have to go to work yet again.

I cant wait until:
I go on the trip with my best friend.

I miss:
Being carefree.

I always:
Will love to write.

My parent:
Loves me, but has trouble showing it.

Someone:
Needs to realize I’m alive.

My friends:
Make me feel like I can be myself.

Valentines Day:
Makes me feel lonely.

Parties:
Would be cool if I went to any.

Why can't:
I manage to do anything right?

I dont want:
To leave my sister and friends behind.

I have to:
Live out my dreams.

I will never:
Stop trying.

Marriage:
Will never happen to me, no matter how much I would like it to.

Children:
Make me feel loved.

It seems like:
Things will never change.

I dread:
Time passing me by.

School:
Scares me.

The best food:
Is always bad for you.

Eventually:
I will either break free, or crack.

Everyday:
Is a fresh start.

Rarely:
People take notice of me.

I still cannot decide:
If they really care.

I am hoping:
I’ll find myself.

The suspense:
Makes me fear the future.

It turns out:
You can’t change what happened.

Everything:
Will be what you make it.

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Location: UK
I am currently:

Sometimes:
life is so unfair it makes me wonder why i'm trying so hard.

No one realizes:
that i'm a small child trapped in a 19 year old shell

I am so:
angry at the world and money

People think:
everything is peachy

Tonight I:
will try not to break

It is hard to believe:
people find me attractive

I realized that:
it's ok to cry

More than before:
i hate money

Obviously:
you dont realise what you'v just done.

I can not stop:
right now? crying.

Nothing matters if:
i dont have people around me

All I want is:
to be with you.

Without even thinking:
i can fall deeper into slums.

It is clear to me that:
things are just going to nose dive

I don't know:
what to do

The only way:
is to get a job

Its hard to tell:
you how i really feel.

The only person:
i want to talk to right now is you.

It kills me that:
I'm still here.

If I were:
beautiful

It is not that I:
hate you. i just hate what you'v become

If someone said:
i love you

My life:
is so confusing.

One thing I know is:
it will get better than this

I would never:
hurt you

I can not stand:
Money

Im sick of:
Money meaning everything

Im afraid of:
wasps..the dark..this being how it will always be for me.

The best:
is yet to come

Its weird that:
this has made my mood plummet

I do not have enough:
confidence

I need:
money for them

I love:
my friends.

I tried:
my hardest

I am starting to:
want to give up totally

For some reason:
its becoming more and more tempting

I should:
go get some air

I cant:
stand up

Tomorrow:
needs to be better than this

I cant wait until:
London

I miss:
Dicky

I always:
wished it would get better

My parents:
are breaking as bad as i am

Someone:
needs to break me out of this

My friends:
are everything.

Valentines Day:
was a sham.

Parties:
are fun if you're drunk and with the right people

Why can't:
everything be simple

I dont want:
to end up like this

I have to:
find a solution

I will never:
let go.

Marriage:
too soon.

Children:
*Sigh*

It seems like:
everything is going to ****.

I dread:
you calling me up.

School:
i need to go back.

The best food:
chinese

Eventually:
we all die

Everyday:
is new and original

Rarely:
feel like im worth all this trouble.

I still cannot decide:
what i want to do with this.

I am hoping:
there will be a solution

The suspense:
could be cut with a knife

It turns out:
it should be.

Everything:
ends sometime.



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