The only other thing that would do if you didn't end up in hospital would be to make you end up very physically ill and kill you. So yea hospital and or death would generally be the outcomes of that.
Do you want to talk about what is going on?
I know having to eat and drink every day can be really stressful and overwhelming, but bodies do require that to function properly unfortunately.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
It's these thoughts being put in my brain. I want them to go away. They start when I get up and come and go throughout the day. I don't want to be made to eat., but the thoughts are really real and scary.
My sister is getting worse again. I think it doesn't help that she is between key workers, her new meds not working, and she is finishing ECT.. I think she needs more help than she's being offered.
I'm sorry that things aren't going well for your sister and I hope that once she has a new key worker things will improve.
What professional support do you have at the moment? It sounds like things are difficult for you too. Can you explain more about the thoughts that you've mentioned here?
I have my CPN, got an appointment next week. I don't know what to say so I will write down everything in a way that makes sense and just give him the letter. I'm not sure how to start!
You could just start with whatever comes into your head first. Do you have a printer? You could write down all your thoughts and then copy and paste them into an order that makes sense to you. It's ok just to write things down in any kind of order though, I'm sure your CPN would ask questions if he didn't understand what you were meaning. Just having something written might be helpful to start a conversation. My support worker always says to start from the beginning, or start with what is most important to you.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Some thoughts:
Hard to focus on reading, TV and conversation.
Urges to SH, restrict, purge. Hard to eat normally, been restricting a bit.
Had the voices a couple of times.
Still scared of poisoning.
People are putting thoughts into my brain.
I have thoughts of jumping off the car park.
I am ok, relieved we didn't have to get the police involved. My sister seems calmer, but I don't know how long that can last. I think tonight will be difficult for her but I don't know how to help.
It sounds like, from what you've said before, that you do a lot for your sister even just by being there and letting her know that you love her. Remember to look after yourself too.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
