She doesn’t. She’s very wrapped up with losing my dad. She talks about him obsessively and like he’s still here, it can be very draining when you’re trying to process your own grief.
That does sound draining and whilst it's important that she's able to process her grief in whatever way she needs to, it doesn't sound like that will actually be helpful for her long term, and also she needs to be aware that you are grieving too and that the way she deals with it affects you. Is there anyone who could communicate with her on your behalf to gently make her aware of why you're struggle to talk to her?
Thinking of you and I'm sorry that things are so hard.
My mum is having grief counselling and her counsellor seems to think she doesn’t need help processing her grief which seems insane to me. I don’t think she’s giving him the full picture.
My mum won’t take it well if she knew my feelings and it will just cause more stress which I don’t have the energy for.
Thank you guys for your support, really means a lot.
I’m having quite a hard morning. I’m out by myself and I’ve had a few objects talking to me. This morning one of our Halloween decorations told me to kill myself.
I’m feeling a bit paranoid, worried about being followed. It’s making feel really, really anxious.
No wonder you're feeling anxious with all of those distressing thoughts etc. Do you know how you might be able to ease your anxiety even a tiny bit? Do you have things you need to be doing that you can focus on?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Could you let your friend know you are struggling or at least try to use being with them as a distraction? That does sound scary. I hope the urges pass soon for you.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
Sorry about yesterday. Had a triggering conversation with my friend which made me spiral a bit when I was already struggling.
My head is very scrambled. Today is a trauma anniversary. Feeling fragile.
Just been indoors with my wife. We did some arty stuff which was nice.
I feel mentally and physically exhausted. I’ve managed to not self harm today though so I guess that’s a positive.
I'm really glad you managed not to self harm and had a nice day with your wife. I hope you can have more days like that and the exhaustion starts to lift.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I spoke to my therapist on wednesday, I can’t remember what I said really. My thoughts are jumbled at the moment. It’s hard to think.
My therapist asked my wife to have a chat and they talked about me, I was in the room but I couldn’t really take in what was going on. I can’t remember what was said properly. She wants me to see the GP, I have an appointment for tomorrow.
Something bad is going to happen. I’m going to die. There are people watching me outside and they tell me things. They say I’m going to die soon. I’m scared.