*Positive Recovery Post* - Recovery isn't linear but its worth it.
Bear with me.
I'm gonna give this post a whirll and try to keep this as untriggering as possible so I'll be brief with my description(s).
Anyway, some will remember me, some won't.
I was very very sick for going on 15 years now. I had bulimia, then anorexia, then b/p sub type. I was hospitalised more times than I can count & given a time frame on my life on a few occasions.
I never ever thought I'd get out alive. Ever. I don't think anyone actually did. Certainly not my family who at one stage arranged my funeral with me at one point, Will and all. Yes, its was that bad but goddammit I got through it.
I am not recovered and yes I have slip ups but I have been a healthy weight for over 2 years now. I am mostly happy with my body, I eat when and what I want, I eat when I'm hungry and even when I'm not! I can sit at family gatherings and eat without fear, I can go out to eat alone, I can order a take out and sit all comfy with my cat & enjoy it.
I can live now, without fear of food and as I said, yes I have slip-ups, and yes I will always have this illness but I am so much better it's silly thinking of it.
I'll probably add to this but for now, I'll leave you with this random thing I wrote.
Please try not to lose hope, even the hopeless find the sunshine.
Wow. I’m so incredibly happy for you; you have come so far and ought to be extremely proud of yourself. Well done and thank you for posting, reading this made me really happy.
We may not see eye to eye, but we can respect each other's opinions and find the truth in them.
Perhaps in those honest conversations, instead of demonising each other,
we might see each other as imperfect humans, doing our best. ~ Jodi Picoult
Ah, Helen!!!! I don't come here that often anymore, but I was having a flick through and I came across this post... I don't know if you'll remember me, but I am so genuinely pleased for you. Baby steps, and keep on keeping on.
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx