Using food to self injure
Using food to self injure
I’ve gone to a lot of trouble to sign up here, but I’m not sure this is the right place. Maybe somebody can tell me. Essentially, I have binge eating disorder. But nobody knows how to treat it because it’s too new. I’ve tried several methods of treatment and it hasn’t worked. I think that’s because I use food to self harm, and I don’t know if that’s common.
I don’t know if I need a trigger warning here, but basically I will eat food when I am not hungry and I am quite stuffed Until I get very very unpleasant gastrointestinal symptoms. I feel that I must punish myself and that Benjamin will make me unhappy and I need to binge because I don’t deserve to have a happy life or a normal life. I focus on carbohydrates and suites. At two points in my life I had anorexia.
I had the eating disorder In control for most of my marriage, but then things happened in the marriage to have it grab me by the neck and not let me go. My husband did not want a sexual relationship and the rejection was enormous. There was a lot of emotional abuse. And left two years ago and I’m trying to confront a world that is only me and nobody else. I’ve gained enough weight so that I’m not interesting to any man except for those who have a special sexual attraction to overweight people. I have no interest.
I don’t know what to do. I thought that since I use it as a form of self harm and people just don’t understand that – they think they can give me dieting tips as if that would help – maybe somebody here could understand and have pants of what I can do.
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