Thanks
I would like to go home but unfortunately will be going back to the psych ward.
But I still really want to get out of here!
I don't know why the doctors are taking so long
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Haha! Thanks
It's looking like I'll be in until Monday at least so that sucks
Still waiting for the nurse to ask if I need more IV fluids and change the cannula which I've been waiting for most of the day
I'm talking to the nurse on my 1:1 which has been helpful as she is nice
And playing games on my phone
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I also have some word game suggestions but nothing else really. Roll the ball is quite a stimulating puzzle game.
A nice nurse makes things much better. :)
I hope you can get back to the psych ward soon and continue your journey there with home hopefully at the end of it. You can do this. You have a life that you do like and you are allowed to live it.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I wouldn't like to ask really
I've just had a hot chocolate.
They come round quite regularly with hot drinks
They removed the cannula because it wasn't working anyway. So hopefully there's even less chance of getting put on another IV.
But they said that yesterday too....
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Hopefully they won't have to do another one. I'm sure you're more comfortable without it anyways.
I'm glad you're staying there, even though I can imagine it really sucks. I think you're being really brave. I get that you don't have much choice, but the fact that you are accepting the support without a fight is still really big and is a choice in itself, because you could fight it and make things more stressful.
Do you think your mum and/or Jasmine might be able to visit at all?
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
They were thinking about it last night because my blood pressure went really low but they didnt luckily.
Thank you Camden, that means a lot
I haven't told my mum that I'm here. I don't want her to worry. And it's quite far for them to come as it's a hospital local to the psych ward, not local to me/them.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Copy and pasted from my RV because I need opinions on this
She said possible discharge on Monday
But I am suspicious
She said only not today because so many people are being discharged and the staff are overwhelmed which is fair enough.
But I've only been given escorted leave. Surely if I was ready for discharge then I'd be informal or at least given unescorted leave?
Something doesn't feel right about it
Am I being paranoid?
I'm worried that she'll just keep making up excuses not to discharge me
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
It might be that it depends on how your escorted leave goes? Maybe if that goes well you'd get unescorted leave before Monday? I think right now with the lockdown and health crises going on, they're probably trying to get as many folks as possible out of hospital. So I don't think she's lying, but being discharged on Monday might be conditional on that?
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
I won’t be able to get unescorted before Monday because the consultant won’t be in
It seems like she is trying to get as many people out as possible though
Maybe it is conditional on the leave
Though if I was going to run away, I would have done it in the week I spent at the general hospital with no locked doors
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Why would she say such a direct thing but be lying to you? If she was going to lie I'm sure she wouldn't have mentioned a discharge date. Yes, it still might be changed depending on how you are over the next few days of course and I know the word possible puts things a bit in the air but at least it's being spoken about and if you don't get home on Monday it might at least be sooner than you thought. Do you feel ok to be going home on Monday?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I was thinking she might be suspicious because my meds haven’t changed, in fact I have come off the depo, and things are better and the ‘delusions’ are gone
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
So she might have put in that you can have unescorted leave if certain conditions are met from your escorted leave. So it's possible it's already been done on her end?
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
I have been lying to them.
But I don't think they know that
But yes that is why I'm suspicious
I'm worried that they know I'm lying but haven't said anything to me
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!