Grief...my family thinks I should be over it by now
Grief has been a long and difficult road for me that has lead to many problems. I have been diagnosed with complicated grief as circumstances surrounding my grandmother's death has effected the healing process. It has been 4 months since my grandmother has passed away and my family is concerned form and feel as though I should be over it by now. I was extremely close to my Grandmother. She was there when my parents got divorced and watched us when my mom had to work. She was there when my mom was emotionally unhealthy and I was emotionally abused by her. She was there when my brother physically abused me. She was the only stable person in my life that I could trust and depend on. She was like a mother and a father to me and now she is gone and I don't feel like I've only lost my grandmother, i feel orphaned. No one understands this. I'm tired of my family telling me to "pull myself together" or "just cry and you'll feel better" or "be grateful for all the years you had with her" or "I think Satan is attacking you". I have had anxiety attacks and have been going to my dr and seeing a counselor and getting help. But I can't stand how unsupportive my family is...even though they lost her too. I'm seriously ready to change my phone number and not tell anyone...lol
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