I just need someone to talk to
I have some serious issues and I don't want to go and get counselling, I think that if I can get some help here, they might go away.
Male: 14 years old
I'm going to keep this short.
Social Life: Non Existent
Hobbies: None, I enjoy cycling but I don't have a bike
Feelings: On the verge of crying
I don't know what's wrong with me. It seems that I don't fit in anywhere. I missed a full year at school for no apparent reason, I don't keep in contact with any of my old friends and I'm not at a new school for people who didn't attend school and I don't want to make any friends/attempt to meet any girls because I'm ashamed of it.
Every time I try to talk to my mother, she just starts arguments/tells me I'm over reacting. I'm ashamed of who I am. I've never had a girlfriend before, I've never kissed anyone before. I spend my time just sitting on the computer, eating junk food (I'm now overweight).
I can't afford a bike, my mother refuses to buy me one and it's the only thing in my life that I actually enjoyed. I don't see a point anymore. If I'm having no social interaction and there's nothing to do that I enjoy, what's the point of being here?
I'm really sad and I wish I could restart my life.