Contains sexual abuse - Internet bullying triggering all abuse memories *also bullying label needed*
This may be long winded so thank you in advance for reading this post.
I am currently a member of a depression group on facebook. I have found the group to be highly benifical to me over the years, however in the past few months everything that I have been posting has been reported to facebook for breaking rules. However, upon consultation with many people, including facebook themselves, my posts are not deemed to have been breaking any rules.
This has actually led to me not wanting to have a facebook account anymore as I feel highly victimised by someone who dare not admit to doing this to me. I feel like they don't like me, but won't admit to doing it so I can try to find out if I have actually done something to offend them. (As I know sometimes what I say and what people think I mean can be taken the wrong way). How am I supposed to sort something out if someone does this?
Several members of this group have struggled to support me but they all know how upset this is making me, although they do not know the reasons why.
I am struggling with the fact it is triggering memories of bulling that occured at primary and secondary school and all the memories around that. It is also triggering the memories of rape and sexual abuse. I have no idea why and how, but it does. It is also making me feel I need to stand up to people who have wronged me in the sense of reporting the sexual abuse, but it happened nearly three years ago so is there any point of dragging this up and making matters worse?
I've got to the point that I honestly do not know what to do. I am seriously contemplating just leaving the internet and running away from everything, which I kinda know is not a sensible option.
Not sure what I want from this, or if this even makes any sense to anyone.