Graphic - PLEASE HELP ME!!! Hidden Trauma
So...i have a hidden trauma that i need to find, i don't know how to find it or where to start. It's always triggered during sex, mostly if I'm tired but lately me and my partners sex life is becoming more and more strangled by my problems.
1) The trauma causes me to panic and loose all pleasurable feelings during sex, dry up or completely withdraw inside
2) I can only have 1 orgasm, I know this isn't a big deal, but once I have 'gone' I don't want to be touched AT ALL so all sexual activity has to STOP because I don't want to touch or be touched.
Please help, I know it isn't all about sex but every time we try to make love, something goes wrong with me and it's making me blame myself and feel guilty so I get scared every time something could happen...