Therapysupport in Newcastle?
Can anyone recommend a therapist in Newcastle or how I could go about getting one?
I saw a private therapist for a few sessions 6 or 7 years ago, and it seemed she just wanted me to ramble on while she collected money for it. The time I have spent in/around mental health services who were, frankly, abusive means that I am considerably more 'traumatised' than before so I obviously don't want someone who's gonna just eat up my money and not get anywhere.
Also I am concerned about them being too much the other way - ie. just all that 'changing behavoirs' claptrap with no understanding that I'm hurting so much inside. Not that I'm against CBT etc as such, just that I don't really have any 'behavoirs' as such that are problematic - it's just my feelings that are crippling (I only SI very rarely now, and to stop me doing something worse).
My current diagnosis is (I think!) severe depression, anxiety, with traits of BPD. I would argue the 'traits of BPD' as they are things like asking for help=attention seeking etc. (When I gave up asking for help, they added 'traits of avoidant pd' so you just can't win, can you...?!) I only mention this as I don't think an accusatory, behavoiral approach is going to be appropriate, as I am severely depressed and generally do not leave my bed at the moment.
I am also slipping into catatonia at points and generally dissociating a lot as I feel so trapped, hopeless and desperate, but cannot kill myself as I can't leave my lovely boyfriend like that.
Anyway I have been offered help to pay for therapy but it can't be really expensive or anything (up to £50 a session). I can use DLA to get there (taxi) too.
Also is there any way of getting some support from the NHS? Dr, crisis team, etc all know but removed my CPN randomly before I'd got much better, now i's much worse again and they just won't help me.
Any advice appreciated