kinda finished the kitchen painting, just need tp do a 2nd coat gloss on the window thingy and the ceiling (woo lol)
painting the hall (because its the same colour as the new kitchen lol) but bugger...run out of paint lol
decided because i will have spare kitchen paint that i wil paint the rat room afterwards lol
so the house is a tip and my care coordinator is coming round tomorrow and i know shell understand but u know you just feel a bit like it should be tidier.
oh did i tell you guys, i've applied for a voluntary job. when out being forced to play skittles i thought i would nosey at the local gym to see f they were still open and saw they are looking for volunteers to run the desk, each slot is like 9-12 4-6 and some other evening slot so ive put down to do a morning sometime (hopefully). Its such a small local gym that they have been struggling for years to stay open so might be nice :)
I hope I can join in. I have been diagnosed since 2003 apparently but just started therapy - it's so hard. I never identified with the fear of abandonment criteria of BPD till my T went on holiday.
I miss him so badly it hurts. Is that crazy?
How do you guys cope with feeling attached in therapy?
I am really strugglng with it as I want to feel independent.
Ferret - Sounds like you have been very busy! I definitely get what you mean about care co-ordinator. That's fab with the volunteer work <3
Hey Lego - Welcome to the thread :) It's not crazy to be missing your therapist, it is a recognised symptom of BPD so please don't feel bad about it. However, I definitely think it is something you need to raise with your therapist upon his return.
Hia. not sure what I need to say here, been diagnosed with BPD for the past 5 years; every time I feel I'm turning a corner and there might be light at the end of the tunnel - it's an oncoming train. have a good day everyone x
“Smiling is only a symptom of happiness and can be faked.
Do not assume that everybody who smiles is happy.”
Kat - I can relate to giving up on hope that things will ever change after being depressed for a long time. It's a really, really hard place to be and I wish I could say something incredibly insightful or give advice but then I should take it myself! All I can say I guess is that I know somebody who is many years down the line in recovery and she will always say to me "There is always hope" - I don't always believe her but she's recovered now, and I know that she too often felt incredibly hopeless.
Hey Hot Stuff - cool name hehe. How are you? Welcome to the thread :)