[PaperHeart]

This is quite alarming for me and really difficult for me to describe so just bare with me.

How it started:

I have been staying with my mom for the past week and 3 days, because I had plans to move in with her since things aren't going so well at my fathers house, he has personality disorders and suffers from hoarding, and it is out of control.

In the past, my mother used to be physically and mentally abusive towards me, and I knew that she might have not necessarily changed, so I wanted to make sure this was going to be the right choice for me. It was an unrelenting fear that I had to confirm, and good thing I did.

Last night, we had a big falling out, and I could see that she hadn't changed, so I informed her I had changed my mind about moving in with her, because I didn't feel things would work out. After the fight, is when the symptoms started, but it was close to bed time, so I went to bed.

We had another huge falling out this morning, where things were so intense, that it became a vicious screaming match, and a lot of things were said; I brought up a lot of things that I haven't for years and so did she. Long story short, she wanted me out, and I left.

I noticed when I got home, I was exhausted, but I also noticed, that my coordination was off, and I had to brace myself up against a wall. I shrugged it off as being tired. when I got into my room back at my house, I noticed my sense of touch was completely compromised.

Another important piece of information, could be that, I got out of the hospital not too long ago after being institutionalized, I had a bad reaction (serotonin syndrome) to Zoloft they gave me, and they wouldn't take me off of, because basically, they felt I was refusing medication, so I took the medication for the length of my stay at the hospital, and my doctor took me off of it after an emergency visit.

The problem:

It is almost the sensation you have when a part of your body falls asleep without the pins and needles. If you ever tried to touch something with a hand that has fallen asleep; you can hardly feel it, the sensation doesn't quite register.

I have this feeling all over my body and the surface of my skin. When I try to eat, my lips cant feel the food passing through the mouth, my mind isn't registering that my teeth are sinking into/chewing the food, and my tongue isn't coordinated at all, its just all over the place in there.

Typing is difficult because my coordination is a bit off and my hands cant feel the keys and the left side of my body seems to be worse then my right. I took a nap thinking this was all stress induced, I slept for about 4 hours and woke up the same.

I looked to the internet on this problem to no avail, and I'm becoming very scared about this. I've tried resting, stretches, and Advil but nothing has worked so far. Please shed any bit of insight you might have on this.

Thank you all

PaperHeart