[Wonderland.]

It sounds like you are in a pretty dire situation.

The first priority is to get a roof over your head and food. I don't know where you live but here over in the UK we have charities which can help you get of the street and even get food.

Have you ever had any treatment for your depression and paranoia and anxiety? It might help to talk it through with someone. We are here, keep talking to us.

There is also the Supporters that you can speak to.