I completely understand as this has partly been a big issue for me too. I sometimes want to SI but for no reason at all other then I just want to. I like my scars and wish I had more. None of that makes any sense and never has. I started to SI when I was 15 then gave it up at 22 and then started again 6 months ago (I'm 30 now) and initially it's because of mental distress but then it just becomes habit and there's no reason to do it other then I just want to. So you're not alone in feeling this way.
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