I feel just as bad today. I messaged her. But as of this writing I’ve yet to hear anything back from her. Today is a day like any other where I’ll go to work, do what I need to do and pretend to be happy for a while. Tonight will be just like any other night I’ll go to bed hoping I never wake up.
Maybe she’ll get back to me, maybe she won’t. Maybe she’ll make me feel better again, maybe she won’t. Either way, how many times can I repeat this pattern? And is constantly seeking help from the source of my pain really a good idea? I can’t keep lying to her either. Eventually she’s going to want to know exactly why am so upset and I’m gonna have to tell her......