My first cut. I was about 12-13.
Although i had been hitting myself and other stuff for a few years beforehand. I was very upset because i was being bullied a lot at school and i basically wanted something that could "relieve" the pain i was feeling. So, instead of drinking that night i got a pair of scissors and i went to my room and cut. I remember thinking that i didn't even know about self harm until i had watched a documentary on it a couple of nights earlier.
I really wish that i had never started cutting as it's now been about 5-6 years and i still have very strong urges from time to time. (Even though i'm 8 weeks free atm!)
However, even if i never cut again, i now have all these ugly scars which i feel i must cover up from the rest of the world.
Truly, i wish i had talked to someone (parent, teacher) instead of handling it the way i did that night.
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