You didn't make me think that at all Jenna, don't worry.
Everything is so emotionally painful, and I can't seem to occupy myself. I've just been self harming to try and clear my head but then the distress comes back again. I don't know how much more of life I can take. I need some support but I'm stupid enough not to be able to access it. I can't get into a book at the moment which is making things worse. I'm very suicidal but still holding on because I'll never get it right. I haven't had proper CPN support for months now. Someone will say I managed to get through ok without it and I'll be discharged. I can't do what I want to do because I might need medical attention and I'm not going anywhere near a hospital with how things are right now. I wish I could push past human anxiety and get on with suicide. I can't make life and mental illness and myself shut up.
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