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Old 17-07-2018, 12:15 PM   #2
AnonymousCaroler
 
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You sound like you have a good relationship with your mum and you've come through a lot together. Don't underestimate her strength and ability to understand what you're going through. Chances are she'll already know there's something and she's waiting for you to tell her.

I think she's picked up on my insecurities at least, she definitely knows that I do well around people and that I don't like myself very much. But I'm afraid that if I tell her she'll overreact and ban me from the internet and anything she thinks influenced me to sh (actually a possibility, she's done this before on less extreme circumstances) and constantly check me for new marks. That I don't think I could take.


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Tell her you need her help because you can't cope and also talk about your feelings regarding going back to school. If she gets upset it's not likely to be because she's angry at you but because she will feel it's hers and your dad's fault for putting you through all the trouble and not realising what it was doing to you.

Thanks, if I'm able to tell her I'll remember this :)


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It's good that you have developed a coping mechanism and carry on with that as it seems to help. However, you need help now before those urges become too much to handle. I don't know how your days together are just now. Does she go out job hunting? Is there a time when the two of you go somewhere to have a meal or can you find a park somewhere where you can sit and talk? Somewhere away from where you stay might help you both relax a bit better so you can talk. Take your time and tell her you need to talk to her about this problem you're having to deal with.

She's around most of the time, though she does leave occasionally for job interviews and whatnot. However I do have a younger sister so sometimes it can be hard to talk to our mom alone without having my sister suspect something. And I definitely don't want my sis to know I SHed, she's not always the nicest though I don't think she means to be rude. But she does say really insensitive things.

Anyways, I definitely still have plenty of opportunities to talk to her. It's not really a matter of trying to find the time, it's trying to find the courage to tell her stuff. Since I actively self harmed for only five months (January-May this year) I feel like it's not significant enough to even mention, even if I'm having urges that may cause me to relapse. It makes me think I'm not wrong/hurt enough to deserve or want support, if that makes sense. That's where my courage really fails. Well that and also the fact that I don't want to hurt her and that telling her this will hurt.


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I hope it goes well for you and you both have a change of luck. It's a sad situation but never give up hope.

Will you come back and let us know how it goes?

Thank you, I'll try :)
And if I do work up the courage I'll definitely come back to let you know.

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