Thank you for the hugs and replies.
I have been struggling a lot more with ED related thoughts this past couple of weeks. I haven't told any of the diabetes team that I have an ED history but at the end of the month I am seeing them so may ask for more advice then. Hopefully the dietician on that team will have some way of supporting me. I used to have a lot of involvement from ED services but not currently. If my ED kicks in any more I may get back in touch with them.
I'm finding this really hard to manage emotionally, I hate being overweight so much that I just try to ignore it but it's getting too much. Thank you for not thinking I'm a fraud.