You know the other big difference? It used to be, I'd get all of these negative thoughts and spirals and whatnot and being depressed or anxious kind of stemmed from that. Now, it's like...I've addressed the thought patterns, but I still feel...sh¡t...sometimes. And then it's easy to fill the old bad thought patterns back in, but whether they come or not, I'm still miserable. I know that if I give in and start cutting, I'll end up in a bad place overall. It's tiring, it takes up a LOT of time and mental energy, and with the way my school and my job work now, it would be difficult to hide (and even more crucial to do so).
Anywho, I think I've found a new method that will be easier to keep under the radar and works decently for me. Here's to hoping.
Trying to get into therapy, but I don't hold any hopes that it will be helpful. It never has been before.
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