I actually went to bed at 9:30 last night and slept badly but didn’t get up until 10 today and then I had a two hour nap this afternoon. I think I’m just really exhausted.
My bedroom is almost done so it’s almost a safe space but literally no where else in the flat is and it feels like I’ve wasted time with my family as I haven’t spent much time with them and I don’t want them to resent me for that. It’s tough. I’m so close to self harming. I just keep dosing myself up on clonazepam but that isn’t sustainable either. I’m really at a loss.
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