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one_step_closer · 23-11-2019, 07:42 PM

Thanks NP.

I have things I could do like reading or TV or word searches etc but I get overwhelmed trying to decide what to do and then I can't focus on anything or things feel like a waste of time. I'm feeling really awful tonight and I wish it was easy for me to just pick up the phone like people expect me to do. But yet again I'm probably safe enough so there's nothing anyone can do. I need to kill myself soon. Other people can do it so that means it's possible for me too. It's for the best. I can't be trapped here.

23-11-2019, 07:42 PM	#1861
one_step_closer The Shadow of the Day Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Scotland	Thanks NP. I have things I could do like reading or TV or word searches etc but I get overwhelmed trying to decide what to do and then I can't focus on anything or things feel like a waste of time. I'm feeling really awful tonight and I wish it was easy for me to just pick up the phone like people expect me to do. But yet again I'm probably safe enough so there's nothing anyone can do. I need to kill myself soon. Other people can do it so that means it's possible for me too. It's for the best. I can't be trapped here.
	I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much. Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass. You didn't come this far just to come this far.