I have ruined everything. I've got too many enemies in this area and I need to leave. I feel ashamed when I walk around town because they see me. Ex boyfriends who were abusive, cruel people from work, people I fell out with.... they're all here and I see them all the time. They must look at me and think what a fucking loser I am.
I've just been to the cupboard and got some blades out. I will make all this right by fucking myself up with them.