most of them are old... there's only a few fresh ones. I started cutting really bad, and then it took a while to stop, but when I did I was able to go over a year without cutting... it had been a while, and I screwed up several times starting a little over a month ago, my old therapist left, transitioning to the new therapist was difficult, and I made some bad choices there... but I've adjusted now, and I still have the urges to cut but they're tolerable, to where I can fight them, I've got several action plans in place, and I should be okay from here on out... it's just explaining away the scars that is going to create some problems. :( I know I'll have to be confident and convincing, and not let the dr's scare me when they say anything about them, which will be hard, since I'm not comfortable with ANYONE seeing the scars to begin with.
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