I have to make the decision to proescute my abuser *family member) or not. Mum doesn't want me to but....I feel like I will never get closure if I don't. I thought I was sure of my decision to prosecute but then my dad said it might end up in the papers and that scared me to death as it;s bad enough wrecking my family without the world and it;s friend knowing!! I don't even know if the paper thing is true but whatever the case it's done it's job scaring the shit out of me. I;m sick to death of my 'family' always been drummed into me 'protect the family' but right now I feel like holding up a massive banner going HELLO, I'M HERE, ANYONE CARE? I'm the victim in thiss ituation so why am I the one suffering. But I can't say that because God forbid I be selfish.
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